My barriers are higher,
can’t let down my guard.
To myself I’m a liar,
self-portrait is so charred.
Then your eyes will darken,
awareness of yourself.
Perceptions ever changing,
altered state of self.
Running out of places,
I see no-where to run.
Give up my airs and graces,
my life just falls undone.
When the beast’s upon me,
it eats into my soul.
Drugs make me a zombie,
my mind is never whole.
Numbing out the pain inside,
harder to stay sane.
Living’s such a drain beside,
delusions on my brain.
What are we doing running to hide
to stay ahead of pain?
It finds us turning round the tide
and hits us like a train.
Author notes
Lyrics from one of my songs.
You can hear this song at www.myspace.com/fracturedpersona & also at www.reverbnation/fracturedpersona
In a list
A contest entry
- Schizophrenia dot com Poet's Society Group's Poetry Contest by SchizoChic.
450 points, ended March 17, 2008, 5 entries
Bronze trophy winner
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Comments
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awesome, each verse seems to have its own little story hidden inside it and when put together makes an amazing song. great job and thanks for entering
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I was browsing and came across these lyrics- and they are indescribable. The aching pain, the torment... the flow of these words are enchanting yet sorrowful. And i sense fury as well. Self-reflection is dangerous when you feel like this. But all in all... i loved this song. "My barriers are higher, can’t let down my guard. To myself I’m a liar, self-portrait is so charred. Then your eyes will darken,
awareness of yourself. Perceptions ever changing,
altered state of self." - I am envious fritz. - T
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Awesome, Fritz...you speak the truth and pen it well, my friend. Best of luck in the contest.
~Monica
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Your writing here is excellent. The immense suffering is described with skill and the darkness comes through in well metered stanzas. Line by line you conjure the depth of disorientation and pain. Several members of my family have schizphrenia and so I have lived watching those I love suffer with it. You take the reader into that place.
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This is so flowing and perfect. Brilliant.
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I love these lyrics Fritz..But then I am amazed an inspired by all of your work.
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You write such amazing songs, I'm jealous of your talent
Another fantastic emotional write/song.
Stay safe
~Manda
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