No Longer There

I can feel it
I can feel it dawning on this damned place
This endless hell, an abyss of pain ever so sweet
Like razorblades on broken skin, I draw back again

I can hear it
I can hear it calling my name, wanting to destroy me again
The whispered hatred falls heavy on my back & burdens me
Through this pain I carry on for a better day

I can see it
I can see it eating you alive
Tearing apart your insides like a disease
Ripping you to nothingness as you wither away

I can't feel it
I can't feel it wrapping me in happiness anymore
It's love & joy has forsaken me
And left me here once more

I can't hear it
I can't hear it's laughter in the trees
Here, forlorn & broken, can I feel no more happiness
No longer can I feel it's boundless love for me

I can't see it
I can't see it's eternal bliss or anymore happiness
Out of the world, the joy has been plucked
Nothing left, nothing but dust

Ashes to Ashes...
Dust to Dust....
And in these ashes
I can feel so much...