Falling

I hate how much I miss you still
I hate how I catch myself
looking for a glimpse of you in town
I hate how I think
of how you made me feel
and I hate how I still
wish you were around

I still think of your laugh
I still think of your grin
I wish I didn't think
about any of these things
because I still can't seem
to get you out of my head

a friend told me
that just because you love someone
doesn't mean it's a good thing
I think of her words
and wonder about the truth
does it apply to me?
was I just a fling?

And I know..I KNOW
deep down
that if I was happy where I'm at
I wouldn't be thinking of any of these things
and it makes me cry
and I try and ignore it,
thinking it would be better
to be miserable
than to hurt to man
who has always been by my side
and I wonder just how selfish
it would be
to do what I want most..
and just walk away.