if you thought you knew me

if you thought you knew me
you better think again
im never going back along the same route
that ive just come along
im going to start afresh
and never once look back
on the one who made me grieve
the one who made me cry
made me cry while thinking why?
thinking why have i nothing left
nothing left to cherish, where?
where has me happiness gone
and i know who he is who stole it from me
if you thought i was weak
turn and look again
i am well defended
try and turn me back again.
you'll never break through
youll never win
because i have already
let you in.
science, white blood cells
same effect.
the antibodies have been created
so dont bother coming back.
you ask if i care
i did once but too long now
i wanted us to be friends
but there was always a problem
never once did i have a problem
too self concious
too "what if someone sees me"
too i cant be asked.
the thing that bugs me most of all
was that you called me your friend
nothing wrong with that i supose
except it was only when
i had done something notable
so desereved it as you put it
when never once did you do anything to deserve it
not that thats the case
but thats what you said to me the first time i said hi
i was lonely and scared so i saw a friendly face
that same friendly face
betrayed me
let me down
never said hey back
and worst of all
whenever i got something wrong
laughed in my face.
i never forgive you for that one moment
not yet
and i never will