My mouth did not open, I said not a word.
Some have said, my pain could be heard.
Sitting in the corner, just rocking away.
Waiting for my night, to turn into day.
Imprints of my hands, left upon my face.
Time standing still, as if running in place.
A hole in my heart, where you used to be.
No one or nothing here, can comfort me.
Going through motions, but have not a clue.
Of where this will lead, or what I should do.
Numbness right now, is all that I feel.
It's like fighting a battle, that's all uphill.
When I start feeling, it's sure to hurt bad,
So right now for this numbness, I am glad.
I want to turn back the time, and make it go away.
I would love to spend with you, just one more day.
Author notes
my son was killed in a car wreck august31,2003 at age 18 and I wrote this about some of the feelings I got right after his death and still get sometimes now!
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you know I really can relate to this. My dad was killed in an accident when I was 17... I feel into a deep depression and really don't remember experiencing a lot of anything until a long time later.
So I can really relate to this... I was totally numb myself. You see I found him dead. -
......my heart stopped.
This almost made me cry. I'm sorry for your loss. Great write though.
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A Beautiful Poem -- Does Honor to Him
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Very touching
Ellan, this poem was very touching to read. It's not easy to lose a family member. My heart aches for you. Thanks again.
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my son was also killed sweetheart. He was 23, a only child. I need not say anything else except peace be with you
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really sad im sorry this happened to you
hugggggggggs you tight
love rhianna
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Numbness is a popular feeling after a shock such as hearing someone you care for has died. It's good at the time or so you think, but the inability to feel makes you feel guilty sometimes.
Sorry you had to deal with this loss, especially as he was so young!
My uncle died when I was 3, he was only 18 aswell and he died in a car crash. The sad thing was he didn't just die on the impact of the crash, he had a problem with clotting his blood and therefore he lost too much blood before he got to the hospital and consequently died of that.
He's my Dad's brother and my Dad's still really hurt. Doesn't help they were feuding at the time and therefore Dad feels horrible that him and Greg didn't leave on pleasant terms.
If you ever need to talk, you know where to find me
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losing children does not make you stronger..it makes you wake up with hands clenched years later.. it makes you cry on Birthdays and death days... then you put in a box or try too..people want you to stop grieving after a couple years.. you can't...you can not go the places at first you use to go as a family... you get angry at families that still have they're teens.. yes?
then time passes and you go through the stages and if you do not get stuck you begin to adjust little by little.. but you always always want them back always
God bless you sweet one these poems are poking fun at men we mean no harm to your son you know that i hope.
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Aw, I am so sorry for your loss... this is beautiful and I'm sure your son loves it too. True emotion here in every line. I'm pregnant so alot of things are making me cry and I must say right now that I am bawling. "So right now for this numbness, I am glad." this is a very powerful line. I can't imagine the pain you have gone through but I am glad that you are able to let it out. Again, I am so sorry. -Ky
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"When I start feeling, it's sure to hurt bad,
So right now for this numbness, I am glad."
These two lines say so very much. They tell the story of the depth of your pain. I am sincerely sorry for your loss, it is a dread of every parent. This definately deserved each and every trophy it received.
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Beautifully written. Great job on this it was really strong and emotional. Thank you for entering! Excellent work and the best of luck in my contest!
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A very tragic story, well written and hard-hitting. I feel your pain through this poem. Good luck with your poem in the contest and God Bless. Julie.
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the apin never eally goes away though it does get easier. thanks for sharing your sad story with me. I work in the medical career so i have seen quite a few of these horrible things happen to far too many kids in the prime of their lives. A parent should never have to outlive their child.
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This is very touching. My friend Jacob died in a car accident earlier this year... and it's hard to deal with... I miss him like it's NOTHING at all. but he's in a better place now... so... I'm glad about THAT much. Nice work! I really like it! Thanks for your entry!
Best of luck in these contests!
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This was a powerful read. There is a lot of emotion bleeding off the page here. I can see your pain in your words.
I am glad I read this poem.
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i only wish i could have been there for you then. the pain fades but never leaves. goood luck with the contest although i know it is much more than that to you. im so lonely without my kids and no one can express the feelings... emptiness it leaves you with.
*hands u a beer and pretzels*
love,
georgie,
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This was well written without the sometimes maudlin metaphors of a tragic loss. Very emotional and heartfelt, yet holds it head up with respectability, not begging for sympathy. Very raw, yet real, and my heart goes out to you for your pain...
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I'm sorry for your loss!
I wouldn't have any idea of how to deal with the loss of a child as you have.
funny how life leaves one the paths it travels.
Keep penning on one stroke at a time!
Bill
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WRITTEN FROM DEEP WITHIN THE HEART!!!
Most of us have lost at one time or another, we carry our hurt forever but do go on and live each day with those sweet memories and also the bad ones. We only pray we learn from them and use them to help us help others day to day.
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I could not even imagine the pain that you suffered and still suffer through with losing a child!!! My heart absolutely just breaks reading this... My prayers are with you and your family. I wish that I could find the words for more comfort but those words don't seem quite enough....
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Love You Momma
The lost of loved ones pinches most. This is a very nice tribute to Bubba your beloved son and somewhere my beloved brother Momma. The last two lines of the poem really touches me deep
I want to turn back the time, and make it go away.
I would love to spend with you, just one more day.
Really I also wish my friend who died come alive for a single day and I can say her sorry for my misbehavior to her. Momma you are great.
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This is very very deep. Your emotions are very raw in this. I agree, your words are from your heart and it shows in this very sad piece of writing. I also agree that he is looking down on you.
God Bless
Wayne
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I am so sorry about your son it would be so horrible to loose a son.Your pain must be great.These words are from the heart and you got out what you were feeling very well.Your son would be very proud and he is looking down at you now smiling and watching over you.
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awwww honey I lost my cat and I know that it doesn't amount to your son's loss but I still miss him everyday of my life. Beautiful poem.
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This is a very moving piece. I can feel your pain through your words almost as if I am going through it with you. Writing is an excellent release. Love ya girl,
Tasha
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I can't imagine losing a son this way. The poem said everything a mother could feel. By reading this, I share your burden. I pray God will give you the strength to endure and comfort you.
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I can't find the words to say
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very good
You penned it well on such a sad and touching subject. I cannot say I understand except to say I hope God wipes your tears and brings you peace one day. God bless you, Mark
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Excellent Write
What a beautiful son you have. Man I could relate to this poem in a huge way. All those emotions, thoughts and feelings. My goodness, and thank God for the numbness too! What to do? Running around in circles almost and going no where. Such a huge loss, nothing greater then loosing your child. Oh your son is very handsome and I'm so sorry for your loss. You love him so, such as I love my son and I lost too. The title "Feeling Nothing" is perfect! Then the first line
My mouth did not open, I did not say a word, then the last line I would love to spend with you just one more day! Oh how I wish we could spend one more day with our sons. God bless you and thank you so much for sharing this with me!
Blessings, many
Kelle Marie
stavykm
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OMG!!!! This poem is so sad. I'm so sorry. You did a wonderful job in writing this though. It's very deep and very sad. Losing a loved one whether it be friend, family, lover, or anyone truly close to you it's never easy. God bless you in all that you do. I loved this poem. It was really sweet and really sad. I'm sorry about your son by the way. If you ever wish to speak with anyone I will be here to talk when I can be.
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No words can describe how sad this makes me feel, for you.I am so very sorry for what you've been going through, losing your son. He was a handsome young man in the pic and I'm sure in person too.
I have three sons. I have always feared that I may someday lose one of them. As a mother my heart aches for you. Even though time has passed, no time can fill the empty space in a mother's heart. Only God can and in time He will.
GBY
SilverButterfly
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