[I would love it if you lied to me] edited.

I would love it if you lied to me
Something I would see through every time
Just because I found comfort in hearing it
I like it when you spare my feelings
Even if it hurts me in the long run

I like it when you blind me
make me think you are better than you really are
because in reality
I know you are a smoker, a sex addict
a pig, who doesn't even know if he cares
you are everything I have sworn against

but you would hide it,
to please me, I miss that side of you,
the person I fell for
the person I was blinded to see the truth in
I care too much
I care too little

it drives you crazy that some weeks
I need to speak with you
and others I will forget that you exist
but then again I feel that you forgot me the longest
I need to walk away

I need to forget about the days I loved you
and remember the days I hated you
the days I would run miles crying
to our favorite songs
you admit you are an asshole

you admit you were wrong
I tell you to stop saying sorry,
I tell you its alright
why?
why do I let everything slide?

It was a mistake.
I don't have any reason for you to come back to me.
in fact I don't have the attraction anymore
you were too afraid for me
You didn’t trust anything enough.

I think I like it better when you lie
That’s the only part the only part of you I really miss
But if you regret hearing so
Leave me a little note
I’ll tell you it’s a lie.