To Someone I Will Never Have

I can't believe how easily it has been
Falling into the same typical cliche habits in
Doing the things that remind me of you.
I am truthfully tired of dreaming about you;
The perfection in your face is driving me overboard.
I fear I am drowning in "what ifs" and "what could have been"
Only the roads all lead to the same point, and reality kicks in
With uncontrollable ease, mocking me in severe ways.
I've made bridges out of lies that separate the truth from the fake,
I've hidden myself the meaning of all our quick glances.
If I could but have you in my arms, wrapped so tightly in one embrace;
If I could but taste the fine skin in which you magnify beauty.
There are bits of me that relish the possibility,
But I am vacant of all hope and it is still tearing me.
I am a wall that is waiting to be cracked and broken,
I am the clock transfixed on a moment that is not coming.
And while there are crystals in me awaiting your sight,
They dim with void as each day finalizes the end.

And I suppose it is never easy to want what you don't need.