Always

always
never a day passed by
without another reason
to cry

I never tried to hurt you
I don't think I could
even with so much time passing
I still don't think I should

even when I wake
and think of all the lies
I didn't deserve it
all I wanted was true love

if you didn't want me
you should have said it
no matter how much
I broke down inside

but you'd bring me back
and make me believe that
you loved me for me
till the day you'd marry me
and we'd be happy forever more

Now I know how true love feels
and I hang my head in shame
for all those times we'd make love
and I thought it was all for real

I thought you were genuine
and I was going crazy
Now I know I wasn't wrong
You said you loved me

genuine honesty
I kept my integrity
no matter how hard
it was to tell you

I only strayed
and even then it was laughable
all those things I said
blown up out of all proportion
because I wanted you to show you cared

I was left alone
You walked away
you couldn't even tell me
you didn't want it

I was alone, all alone
when you should have been there
you never were
and never will be

and even now
when I wanted no more than friends
because I cared
I always cared so much for you
even though you looked down on me

I was never enough
an embarressment you wanted to hide away
all those I hurt myself
In hope, that someone would see
the good I had within me

and now, its time to say
I've given up completely
we used to lay there and tut
that we wish we'd met years before
now I'd wish we'd never met at all

Its been over for many winters now
and the leaves have began to fall
and as the truth leaks out unintentionally
I won't look for a ray of light for us
theres nothing you could say that I'll believe