Wanting

I'm obsessed

I want this

I'm depressed

I need this

Or so my thoughts desire

This thing I need so badly

Just melts away in fire

Of unwanted disappointment

I can't stop

My mind keeps on whirling

I can't drop

The thought

Of wishful wanting yearning

My OCD insists

I can't pull away

My thoughts just can't resist

Long day after day

I'm crazy!

I'm insane!

I'm lazy!

My will is drained!

Of myself!

I cannot escape

Can't scrape

The borders of my insanity

Can't realize

Blessed reality!

My thoughts

Keep on chatting

Into my hungry ear

That only wants to learn

About the things I want to hear

I don't want to want this!

But then I really do!

But then I'll just miss

The annoyingness of you!