Alone...

Do you miss her?
Do you remember all th emoments you had with her?
It wasn't just a two person relationship you know, the whole family was there.
But when the thoughts passed through your mind, did you even care?
Did you care about that future you were taking away?
Did you care you were volunteering abscence on my most important days?
Did you care about raising me with her?
Or were you just concerned about being in your other world?
So much pain over the last year,
It seems I've lost so many that are so dear...
All the little things that happen every day
Just seem to all fade away.
All the tears that roll down don't seem to stop running
Even during good times, theres always something
Something that reminds me of you
Somehow never seeming it could be true
True that you threw your life away without a passing glace
True that I didn't even have on chance
All I'm suppose to do is forgive
But how can I when it hurts just to live
Sometimes I think it would have been easier if you were dead
Then I wouldn't have to face the pain of seeing you, all the images in my head
Like all the friendships that disappear, a marriage you couldn't attend
Even though the bodies only a few miles away, the funeral will never end...