Moving On

Is it wrong to have feelings for another?
When the one you loved is no longer.
Apart and seperated we are now,
So far gone I just don't understand how.
Time has passed by, and I've removed my narrow view.
I see another person in a new light,
But somehow I feel it just isn't right.
I should be faithful to the one I loved,
To the one I held so close and dear.
But my problem now is that he is no longer near.
Should I feel shameful for looking elsewhere?
Or should I just keep my focus to where its always been.
I really don't know, nor understand.
I really don't know what to do.
Why should I feel so blue.
I'm alone, and allowed to look.
But I feel like such a damn closed book. 
Never to open again to anyone.
But my heart yearns to open the pages to another.
Yet I feel like a traitorous fiend.
I just don't know nor understand.
I suppose I'll just have to wait patiently,
Until these feelings come to an end.