Love Triangle

You can't catch your breath either
so it would seem.
We're choking on this passion,
gasping for an answer...
fighting so many urges...
It just isn't fair.

Your touch is electrocuting
Your gaze is petrifying
Your voice is haunting
Your mind is amazing

Everything melts away...
I long to melt in your arms
You make me feel so welcome,
I just want to fall into your world.
I don't want you to let me go.

You lay your colors on me like a canvas.
Your precious blues, gentle greens, incredible purples, beautiful browns, glowing yellows, your captivating hues of red...
Though no shadow is blue.

Simply amazing,
for lack of better words...
for lack of  words even created
It just seems like we should be…
Should be….


Is it really wrong?
Why must this be so hard…?
I never thought I would hurt again.
I thought I had everything set,
Everything placed,
Everything planed,
Everything was perfect…

No, it wasn’t

I’ve told you it all
…you’ve critiqued
We both want the same
We both want each other

But who is the better?
Who is the better?
Who…?

You actually listen to and see my art
You actually seem to care so much
You are so wonderful..
It just isn’t fair.

You guarantee the most and the best
You guarantee all he can not
...all he proposed
...but just could not uphold those promises.

I am happier with you.
I didn't think it was possible,
possible to be happier
but it is
I've been lying to myself.

I had everything planned.
I had everything under control.
Until that day, we met again..
after all those years
and we just couldn't bear it.

I can't believe that I love you.
I love you.
I do love you.
I would probably be happier with you.
I would choose you.
I just can't do this to him...
not right now.
I just can't.
I'm afraid that I know what would happen.

"From the moment I met you, all those years ago, not a day has gone by when I haven't thought of you. And now that I'm with you again... I'm in agony. The closer I get to you, the worse it gets. The thought of not being with you- I can't breath. I'm haunted by the kiss that you should never have given me. My heart is beating... hoping that kiss will not become a scar. You are in my very soul, tormenting me... what can I do?"
(Star Wars-Ep II)

I thank you, for everything.
I can't be with you.
Not now...
Right now, I need to help him...
I need to be with him...
I can't be with you.

But I do...truely love you.
And...it would be you.