Escape

Please forgive me
I may choke on these words
But I can't come home tonight
It just seems easier to go
To allow the night to rise
And swallow it all up
Maybe then I wont be haunted
By the moments from my past
I might be able to hide
From the memories I have
Sometimes I can't help but wonder
If any of this was worth
The price I seem to have paid
I'm tired of being the one
Trapped in the frontline
First and last defense
Against matters unseen
Every line blends
Every colour blurs
With no place left to turn
I scream out to myself for help
But find no options left to give
This all seems my fault
And although I'm gone
Although you've forgotten me
Maybe one day you'll wonder
If something is missing