the other in the shadows

When it first started I loved you,
now that your gone I can't even stand you.
I gave you everything and didn't think twice about it.

Pushing my intuitions into the back,
putting everything on hold just for you.
Placing everything I own in the palms of your hand.

Then it came down to you weren't happy,
I wouldn't talk to you.
That it was always my fault.

You never took responsibility,
it was always left up to me,
Now that I look back at it I can't really say I was happy.

But in the shadows another one stands,
in the back of my mind I always thought about it.
But never really took action until now.

There was once a time where I wished your car would just pull up.
Now I think about it I'm glad it didn't.
For if it did the one that sits there now would never have showed.

I planed for so long,
letting my emotions take hold,
I took the opportunity and held on tight.

now that I think about it I'm glad I did.
The other in the shadow soon stepped out,
Now that were together I can only think about him.

but there are times were I think about you,
hoping your okay.
But then my actions take hold and I push you away.

Take the one that is closer to me,
and never letting go.
just wanting to forget your face.

Letting the one in the shadow to just stay.
My guilt is rising for what I have done,
now I am the ho of Babylon,

and nothing I say can ever change that,
I try to over look what is said.
But to me it seems that it just grows.

The fire inside of me takes hold and I just try to throw it,
letting the ones I know think what they think.
I may be the ho but at-least I'm happy.

Yeah there are a few changes to what has happened,
I have to learn to love and trust all over again,
but at-least with him I feel as if I'm safe,

The bruises on my heart are slowly starting to heal.
making the pain of losing you a little more bearable.
I take this man in the shadows and make my piece.

For now that it is over I try to forget your face,
and slowly as the days go by it begins to fade.
From my vision as the one in the shadows slowly take hold.