Happily Ever After

Do you believe
Cause I'm not sure
I can't make up my own mind
It's like I'm Bi-polar or something
I believe anything someone tells me
Too gullible to realize my mistakes
The truth is I don't believe
I fake everything
I'm not wiccan
I don't have a wolf furry
I don't care about energy
The truth is I became addicted
Addicted to the attention
Losing myself in the process
All I want is someone to love me
I want to love them to
But that doesn't seem to be working
I don't deserve anyones forgiveness
I don't deserve anyone's love either
But a girl can dream right
I've been told that it's easy to fall in love with me
But it's not me there falling for
Im a fake and it's driving me insane
I'm tired of people demanding things of me
Love me, hug me, believe in me
Then they go and break there promises
And people wonder why I can't stay with them for very long
Even my sister demands without knowing it
Telling me all her little dark secrets
Asking me if I want to know before hand when she kills herself
Or would I rather just read it in a note
What I wonder is if she ever thought that maybe I don't want her to die
I love her but she needs to find herself before she can ever get better
Why would someone hurt themselves for a reason like they can't get a job?
I don't understand the minds mentality
I want people to live and be happy with what they have
Freaking out about the little things in life gets old
Scaring oneself for no reason except for the attention is stupid
I want people to stop judging other's just because they don't have the same morals
I want to have that happy ending that every girl dreams about
So for those of you reading this believe in something thats real
Don't ever loose yourself
Stay true to what you believe and tell everyone judging you to fuck off
Find that person who loves everything about you and love them back
Find your Happily Ever After!!!