Nicole

Some days things just seem so hard
Like everything around you is just crumbling
You try to keep your head above the water
But you can’t
You never really could
You want to reach out for help
But you won’t
Because if anyone really knew how you felt inside
What you hide beneath your mask
You’d just end up drowning them to.

Some days just seem so pointless
You wake up and you realize
realize how alone you are inside
And it hurts
And you cry tears of nothingness
And you scream out in smiles
You work and you play and you die inside
Quietly

Everyday, you pray for something or someone to end your life
It’s not that you want to die, it’s just that you don’t want to live anymore
You beg and you plead for god to just take you away
Because you’re too scared to do it yourself
But he won’t
He never does
And you’ll continue to bleed
And you’ll continue to fall
Until you get up the courage
To sleep
forever

RIP Nicole, see you when I see you