Left Behind and Declined

I want to see inside the box
I'm trapped
I need out
and I'm inside
unable to see the truth
on the outside.

Unsure of my capabilities
irresolute of my responsibilities
insecure of intimacy
shy in all situations.

Those who should have
fostered my learning
hindered me like a
dam in a river.

I'm booksmart, nothing more
sometimes not even that
why wasn't I taught
why wasn't I helped?

To keep me where I am now?
Make it so I can't leave?
I thirst to experience life
all of it.

They've made me scared
of incidents that
promote confidence
embedded trepidation
into my skin
with every scar I have
outside and in.

I'm inside the box
I can't see outside
and even though I'm within
I still am unaware
of what's really going in
in my world or theirs.

I have been left behind
to the truth I am blind
emotions go undefined
I am undermined
my life calls to be redesigned
my insight could do to be realigned
my skills need refined
my attitude intertwined
all the while I'm disinclined
and by their ideas I am declined
to the darkness I am assigned
I need more faith in mankind.