Hi

alone in the dark of my house with nothing but the street lamp shadows flickering across my floor
and the blue glowing lights from across the room
i sit here and stare into your words letting each one drip through my subconcious and file itself away for the day ahead
when every second that ticks by until i read you again seems like an eternity of darkness
where nothing but your simple words and oracle manners can fill the empty space left behind by too many thieves in the night
after nothing more than what they could carry
as they walked away leaving me to deal with the pain of regret and fear of the future
without the bruises and threats to keep me on that narrow path i've been walking my whole life between pleasing others and not destroying myself
when i give every ounce that i have and search for a single moment for myself where i can sit back
and breath
and let your words slide over me like a veil to block out the thoughts of regret
and questions for the future that seems so bleak without your hope to light the way
that i never seem to be able to find on my own without a whip and a crop to drive my broken body onward
when all i truely want is to sit down and stop in the shade of an aspen tree
with the sun shinning down on me in dappled shade as the leaves blow like water through my mind
and your hand rests in mine
and your heartbeat melds into mine
and everything drifts away into a glowing screen
in a darkened room
where hope lies in three little blips of light
hi