Damnit you piss me off on a regular basis! I have been your best friend for years of our lives. I
have been through the good the bad and the worse with you. I have held you when you hurt over
some girl who broke your heart. I have been there when you wrecked your first truck and couldnt
stop shaking in the aftermath, i was there when you had your first real FIGHT with your parents
and you threatened to run away, i was there when you lost someone you loved, i was there when
your house burned to the ground and left you nothing and i let you sleep in my bed while i took
the couch because you were to tall to fit on the lumpy old sofa. I love all my friend and am
always there for them, but you more then most. I let you get away with being rude when you
where in a bad mood.
some how somewhere along the line i fell in love with you, your bad temper and smart mouth,
your outragous sense of humor, your sexy yawn and haunting laugh and i even love when you
talk in your sleep while crashing at my house. I dont know how i let you pass all my defenses and
walls i had raised to keep people out ,to keep me safe but i let you go straight to my heart with
your crooked smile and boyish charms and the first thing you did was was stick a knife right in my heart.
I couldnt decide the right thing to do. Do i tell you how i feel of just keep it to myself and
slowly come unglued . i just wasn't sure till one day i FINALLY got the courage to tell you i love
you and i always have since we were kids growing up in the south.All you can say is " Well i don't
know what to say i have a lot of girl liking me right now!!!!" Are you serious you ass there is a
huge difference between skanky young girls who just like you for your Sports career and your
BEST FRIEND who has been in LOVE with you for years.....So we fight for weeks and argue all the
time our friendship crumbles like sand on a beach over time , i cry myself to sleep every single
night wondering what i did wrong. Did i do anything right? Then when i finally think i have moved
on and i find a guy i think i could like you get jealous and tell me its not right. you are pissed off
because i didnt wait for you because you were so unsure what you wanted to do . I am sorry
that is how it went down because i do love you . I am sorry your hurt and feel i forgot about you
but i can not wait forever for you to decide to give us a try or to let my feelings slide, because i
am still so hurt that i said i love you and you blew me off but when i move on your unsure of your
wants. you tell me you love me everytime i see you and every night when we get off the pphone
but are you telling the truth or smooth talking me like you have been known to do. I am so
confused with my life already disheveled and you ask me what wrong when i start to cry when
you the devil himself are the reasoin why i am feeling so much pain but doesnt the saying go its
better the devil you know then the one you dont so i will remain your friend for life watching you
flit from one girl and finally find a wife who will hurt you and leave you for your little imperfections that
i find so enduring and when i am old and ready to die i will go to heaven or hell with my unrequited
love for you still burning me Alive !
ALRIGHT PEOPLE I AM BACK! I KNOW I HAV NOT WRITTEN ANYTHING THAT WAS POSTED IN OVER A YEAR BUT MY LIFE HAS SETTLEDA BIT AND I MAY HAVE MORE TIME SO SEND YOUR COMMENTS AND LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK!!!! I WILL BE WRITING MORE SOON AND HOPFULLY PEOPLE WHO ARE FANS OF PAST WORK WILL LIKE THE NEW STUFF AND NEW "FANS" WILL LOVE IT ALL!!!!!
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