Mama knows,
and Mama see's..... just like me ....our guardian angel,
little baby Jeanmarie.
Taken so long ago, dearest of souls, laid down to sleep,
her brain forgot to tell her to... breathe.
Off to heaven her lil spirit flowed.
I ran up the stairs, heard mother scream, a cry,
that shook my insides.
That is when I knew death did arrive, gone was my little sis.
The doctor was called, he tearfully wept,
"no reason, no marks, I cannot determine why?
Your little sister is not alive."
The police arrived, somber and shook,
trying desperately to comfort, to ask their why's.
We looked to them for answers?
The answers they didn't have to give.
They wrapped her so carefully,
All we could do is....weep.
I quietly asked,
"Is it my fault mama...
I got German measles when you were pregnant?"
Shaking her head, rubbing my back,
we just don't know...we just don't know....
Hiding behind his blanket of fears, little brother gary held in his tears,
"Is it my fault mama...I got stript throat...
was it my sickness that ended her life?"
Struggling to swallow mama said,
we just don't know...we just don't know....
Years later, upon my delivery night, birth of my own first child,
a tender daughter.
I sent the order, deliver to my mother waiting in room nearby,
this beautiful child, and tell her....her name is Jeanmarie,
no other name will do, she will live on through me and you.
That's exactly what she did...healing our hearts,
ending our misbeliefs, that somehow,
we had caused such an innocent death.
Our guardian angel little baby Jeanmarie,
has spoken many times to mama's, myself and gary's little heart.
Comforting, strengthening, intercessor of purity.
Sudden Infant Death syndrome, now that we know?
It still did not bring her back.
Each time we hear my daughter, little Jeanmarie Laugh,
we all do a joyful dance.
When she ate her first birthday cake,
we smeared frosting all over our faces too!
When she fell off her bike, we both laughed and cried,
enjoying her fearless pride.
What an honor it was to know you, and thank you
for never leaving me...I always feel your love near.
Love, your Big Sis
p.s. you are Auntie now, here is a pic of our Valentine's gift!
You have truly lived on.
Daughter Jeanmarie, Gina
new grandson, Owen,
we call lemon drop toes!
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sad but beautiful,
