I Fear

I fear the invietbale,
Knowing tonight,
My eyes will close,
My breath breathe heavy,
I shall fall asleep cold,
No arms around me,
To hold me close,
Keep me safe,
As I plunge into dreams.

I fear awaking,
Without you next to me,
To feel the coldness of the bed,
The other side of my bed,
Your side.

I fear my dreams,
How they will replay our moments together,
Our laughs together,
How we kissed,
Held the other,
And whispered sweet words,
Of how they haunt me,
Replaying memories,
Forcing me to wake with tears.

I fear loneliness,
Being without,
What I crave and need,
What you fullfilled me with,
For this week.

I fear my mind,
How it with place doubts,
Tease me with worry,
Make me think things I don't wish to,
See which is perhaps not real,
How it will tease my mind's eyes,
Make me things these dreams are real,
When it's just me you love.

I fear forgotteness,
How you will one day forget me,
When I'm gone,
How you'll move on,
And I'll be nothing more than a memory.

But for now,
I fear sleep,
I fear morning,
I fear memories,
I fear dreams,
I fear suggestions,
I fear doubt,
I fear waking up,
And you not being mine...