Contradictory Flaws (Lost)

I've tried to examine what I've become
Every choice has made me numb
Do I really want to remain the same
Or do I regret what I became
Can I change because of what I see
Or will I ignore it all, still being me

The blister exists, just beneath the skin
Representing the pain always held within
Just cause I have nerves don't mean that I can feel
I'm not sure if this pain is worth what's real

I'm blanking out all the happy times
Repeating shadows and making rhymes
Sorrow shadows anything good
Removing firm ground upon which I stood
I miss the things that I used to know
Cause now I've got nothing to show

The ache continues, but God knows I've tried
I wish I could run, but there's nowhere to hide
Just cause I have nerves don't mean this pain is real
This life is something I don't want to feel

I'm tripping over myself, fall on my face
In the eyes of the world, I'm just a disgrace
Shadows are dancing across the wall
Laughing out every time that I fall
The road's running out, no time left to run
I wish that this time would hurry and be done

The shadows arise, but all them I know
There is nothing left but pain for me to show
I only with that I'd start falling away
Because, in my eyes, there's nothing to say