Only When I Sleep

Only when I sleep I do not feel pain when near you,
wrapped in your invisible arms, hanging here...somewhere.
Only when I sleep can I still feel your heart beat,
pressed against the shattered piece of mine.
Only when I sleep, but then I wake and your not here,
I fall into the pools depths, consumed by my own fear.
Only when I wake do I feel this hollow pain,
for to sleep for eternity and dream of you I long.
How for this I long.
Only when I rest my weary eyes and see your face,
I find my eternal resting place in the depths of your aura.
Only when I blink and catch a glimps of my dreams I am content,
then all my waking sensations of lose seem to stream back.
Only when I sleep is my biggest mistake redeemed,
no time is lost on thoughtless nights drinking soul consuming whiskey.
Only when I wounder along this conscious plain I am broken,
to drift though your memories in my minds blocks I wish for.
How for this I wish.
Only when I dream I do not experience this agony,
for I am not thinking that your not thinking of me.
Only when I sleep does my heart seem to tell these truths,
these things that in waking I can never tell to you.
Only when I find my way back to that dream land I can face myself,
for here is where the true me with in you lives.
Only when I wake do I wish you could understand,
for you to see my dreams, my heart, as I do I ache for.
How for this I ache.
Only when I Sleep can I still have you.
Only when I sleep can I still live.
Only when I sleep can I still truly breath.
Only When I sleep.