Fear grows with each memory...
Only now... why do they come back for me?
Reckless realities rearing back into my life,
Gone, Was what I hoped they were.
Oh, why did I find that one...
The one object that brought back the need,
That brought back the wanton... and now, it is
Eating away at my heart... my mind... my soul.
Never have I ever felt this big of a wanton.
My mind turns and stumbles over this one mind-numbing discovery...
Each day... everything seems to just get worse.
Memories. These memories hurt... why?
Oh, why would he want to do that... to us all?
Reminisce with me... relinquish those thoughts and feelings.
I know it's hard... I know all the pains... the need...
Everyone loves you... everyone needs you. Use some common sense.
Seas of tears will run till no more come... your family needs you.
Concentrate... why would you want to banish your existence?
Others and so many love you! Think of the siblings... your children...
My mother most of all.
I thought you loved her... do you just think of yourself?
No one wants you to leave this world...
Granted no one else really knows.
Tonight I wonder... every night I wonder -when- where will I find him?
On the ground... hanging... looking as if he's peacefully asleep?
How... why... when... don't do this to us... to your friends and family.
Anxiety, fear, apprehension, depression - that is what you'll leave us with.
Uncaring I know you are not... quit these childish thoughts.
Now... do you neglect those that adore and care about you?
Tell me, please... tell me what I found is a tall tale!
'Morrow, I wonder, will I find thee in demise... or alive?
Ending is not what causes these memories... it is his death.
Author notes
It is an acrostic...it is about my father... I found out a few things that have been stressing me out.
Contest: I'm not entirely sure it's what you're looking for, but I gave much thought to it and it seemed like this poem would fit.
A contest entry
- Pain In Poetry by Jadis Blade.
450 points, ended April 11, 2008, 57 entries
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300 points, ended August 29, 2008, 14 entries
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Wow. I really liked this. The emotion really lept out to me. I could feel the venom in the words. =] Good job. ~Hollis
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hate to ruin your poem but wreckless is with a W not an R, so this is no longer an accrostic. Thanks for entering and best of luck
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Wow this is good and deep and reminded me of my Mommy, she commited suicide when I was 15, right before Christmas, and these are a few of the feelings that I was left with, I dont know your story, but I feel like I retlate, you put your emotions into this poem, like way into this poem, no holding back, thats good you need to let it out. If you need someone to talk to I am here! I know you dont know me, but it never hurts to vent!
xXBugXx
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Its very good but incredibly sad. Personal poems are sometimes hard to share so thank you.
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This is such a sad poem, I'm sorry it's personal to you and this is based on your father
I liked the use of the acrostic form here.
All the best
Pozo
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