Christi's Poem

today
today has set in
sank in
you
me
we are the same
I've come
crying and broken
on your back porch
(I knew the light would be on)
waiting for you
talk to me
please, just talk to me
and we know
this is how it will be
this is how is has to be
you say
I've dated a Logan before
look into his eyes
his empty 'I love you's'
the girls
the empty bottles
the wanting to touch
not the way to touch
just one look
and I know I've dated
That
before
you love him
I say
I do love him
his eyes
his kisses
the way he holds
touches and feels
its all okay
he feels all okay
this is my Logan
the Logan I love
his hugs
the way he plays
and holds my gaze
he is my craze
I know
I know
you say
I've dated a Logan before
but that was
before
but, but listen
can't he be
my something more
those late nights
nothing to say
and every reason to stay
connected
wake up and be by my side
dont you see
he's
My
Logan
not your
I've dated a Logan before
and you cry
I cry
tears together
break down
shake down
taken down
because I know
we know
I've dated a Logan before
he wont be
cant be
something more
not for me
not for you
and thank god
not tomorrow
he's their problem now
should we warn
or wait and see
if he will be
just one more
I've dated a Logan before
but I know
I know
he's my burden to bear
created by
my every fear
and if only he could see
every tear
every hate tainted hurt
I've gouged into my sould
graffiti with his name
tagged in its place
where it has no right to be
and you my friend
can see
its burnt in your mind
long lasting
last impressions
making their way through
the channel three fuzz
wait one second
we are
family
sisters
friends
bonded by this
ever fateful shit
we've been handed
with a fist shaking right back
and you know
before I could ever know
I have to do this on my own
no words
no pain or tears
can shake what I have
right now
right here
because everyone can see
everyone but me
this is my way
my burden to bear
my one and only
I've dated a Logan before