Let Me Cry When I Must! by stavykm at All poetry

When I must cry I know it may be hard
Have you lost your child or been dealt that card
How do you know how I should feel?
I've only had six weeks, should I be healed

He's not here, don't you get it, my Matt, I'm a mess
Body no longer because of death now, and you say bless
If you haven't lost your baby you don't know for sure
No one really is able to help me or be able to cure

The tears of agonizing pain I cry, I feel insane
Feelings of my heart and mind are as tears of rain
Family in despair, everyone here has their own grief
There are truly no words for any of us to bring relief

Frustration of powerlessness of the reality of what is
Acceptance, NO my tears roll down my face because of this
People mean well but let me cry when I must
Why can't you just understand, turn it over to trust

My faith wavers because my son is dead
I cry so hard this has been my biggest dread
To loose my son to peer pressure with drugs
My life has pulled me out from under the rug

This is more painful just imagine if you could
My reality of death and life let me cry, if you would!!

Written by: Kelle Marie Stavron

October 30, 2007

A contest entry

for all you poetic emotive hardcore individuals (aka, all you emo's) by SignedSinerelyMe. 1000 points, ended November 17, 2007, 14 entries
Gold trophy winner
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
Neurotically Dead--x by Atrophya. 600 points, ended February 2, 2008, 9 entries
Silver trophy winner
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
Make Me Cry by Scene Queen----. 400 points, ended November 7, 62 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest

Do you know how to comfort and to allow someone to grieve, because you can't fix it or bring my son back?

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YesterdaysDreams
February 18
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The tears of agonizing pain I cry, I feel insane
Feelings of my heart and mind are as tears of rain
Family in despair, everyone here has their own grief
There are truly no words for any of us to bring relief

This was incredibly sad, I had the image of a house full of people so lost within their own personal grief that they could not reach out for eachother. I am sorry for your loss.
SarahD
February 6

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Emotionally charged
I am very sorry for your loss and I know these words, that you must have heard more times than you care to mention, are of little comfort and sometimes make you want to scream - I know I would!
I'm not a mother, but I am human and I know of loss. How can it not be devastating> and how can anyone expect anyone to move on in such a small amount of time - I can't imagine ever getting over someone that close.
You have expressed yourself so well here. There was the risk that your feelings and thoughts would have sounded stunted by the rhymes, but that just didn't happen. It flows and therefore you don't get caught or shunted onto the next line, this allows the reader to be in the moment and those feelings with you.
You certainly did deserve those trophies! How anyone could not be moved by this expression of pain is beyond me.
Take care and take as long as you need! If you rush the greiving process, it'll come back to bite you.

Sarah D
DreamEnigma
February 6

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My good GOD!!! my soul reaches out to you eternally. I am not a mother, and I'm sure I could never understand. This braught me to TEARS, and I want to offer you my hand. I just wanted to tell you how amazing I think you are for sharing such a tender part of yourself, and your indescribable loss! I felt so moved by your expression. Please feel free to read my poems, and write me back if ya want. Take care, and may love and blessings rain down upon you!
patrick20traveler
February 6

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Very powerful. I can't begin to imagine that kind of pain, but your poem came close to making me feel it. I thought you didn't need rhyme with such a powerful premise.
Gagiikwe
February 6

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Been near there
Grief is a natural process and must be respected and allowed to run its course. Remaining long in grief is unnatural, and must be addressed, with sensitivity and patience.
But acceptance doesn't mean you still don't get pissed at it all.
A-Daisy-Among-Roses
June 23, 2008
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I am so sorry and I actually do know what it is like to lose your little boy. I lost my son to cancer, it is something I have never been abl to get over. THe pain dims but never goes away. again i am sorry. Your words have left me an emotional wreck.
Atrophya
January 19, 2008
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Oh god. I am terribly sorry, I really am. May he rest in peace, truly, whenever you want to talk, I am always here. God, I'm so sorry, you've succeeded with making me sad enough to cry, really.My oh my, I don't know what else to say but this is beyond touching,beyond pain, I am sorry for your loss.

Rain--x
Celticmoon
January 7, 2008
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Unless one has been in the place as you have no one can ruly understand the loss or the deep pain one feels when grieving for the loss of a child. We cry to cleanse, we cry to release, we cry for many reasons and in the end all for the same reason...because we must! Thank you for entering. Best of luck to you!

Blessings
Bel
Mat Larkin
December 13, 2007
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very powerful..very sad
Jeez...Your pain jumps out of each line. I send good thoughts. Larkin
GypsyEyes
December 13, 2007
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you have a lot of emotion in this poem and i really liked it good luck in this contest!
ThatONEweirdChick
December 13, 2007

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Wow...I can't imagine the pain you are going thru with this lost and the emotion flowing in your poem. Sometimes people just need to leave a person alone to let them deal with their grief and mournings in due time. Sometimes they just need to know that someone's there, without them attacking them with trying to make them feel better. Great write. So sorry for you, but thanks for adding this to my contest.
Misfitdepressive
November 10, 2007

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You cant bring him back or fix it: but you can look forward and through it.
i lost my sister, and im only 14 and was forced to have an abortion a few weeks ago, what your going through must be hard and i so sorry, though i know words won't heal. Just know, a kid will always love their mum, i love mine and ive been peer pressured into drugs: 4 of my friends in rehab. He loved you, i promise and i know that doesnt help but he wouldnt want you to blame yourself, i know, ive been there. Im soo sorry look up to the stars: they always show you the truth.. sounds stupid but one night do it. You will feel a strength you havent for a while. Trust me xxx Semoga berjaya- may you succeed
grannyeri
November 3, 2007

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Grieving for a lost son is part of the healing process and all pass through the various stages when a loved one dies. One needs to cry and some take longer than others to get over this stage and onto the acceptance and moving on stage. It is so raw now and hurts and the crying is good. Deepest sympathies to you and your family - your heartfelt sentiments are so well expressed in thes lines.
Roaddog Wolf
November 2, 2007

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You ever need a shoulder to cry on Kelle you can cry on mine anytime
after reading this I'm ;looking for a shoulder to cry on myself. You wrote this with so much emotion that it just grips the reader right where it should , in the heart. It is so hard because no one can know your pain and your right no one has the words to make you feel right, but everyone is just praying and wanting to be there for you.
I have felt so helpless to do anything and like all of these folks , I wish I could do more but , and i'm sure its safe to say that we all love you kelle and we're all here for you in any way we can be.
Cry those tears Kelle and as you do hopefully you we see better days ahead. It's a very sad poem my friend but it is written with enormous heart thank you for sharing
Roaddog Wolf
November 2, 2007
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You ever need a shoulder to cry on Kelle you can cry on mine anytime
after reading this I'm ;looking for a shoulder to cry on myself. You wrote this with so much emotion that it just grips the reader right where it should , in the heart. It is so hard because no one can know your pain and your right no one has the words to make you feel right, but everyone is just praying and wanting to be there for you.
I have felt so helpless to do anything and like all of these folks , I wish I could do more but , and i'm sure its safe to say that we all love you kelle and we're all here for you in any way we can be.
Cry those tears Kelle and as you do hopefully you we see better days ahead. It's a very sad poem my friend but it is written with enormous heart thank you for sharing
lostinthevoid
November 2, 2007

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omg
these words are so true,and even if they did loose their child,they would not know how you feel. this is an amazing write,your words are so profound,and the delivery is felt very strongly!
Talking Toni
October 31, 2007

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And You Must Cry.................
it is what shows your love most...your precious tears longing to hold your precious first born again. I will not try to tell you to stop crying. You must do it as a family as well. Each of you have to have your "own" time to cry and remember Matthew in your own special ways but I think it would be good to sit around and think of fuuny things he did and all the happiness he brought into each of your lives. You'll share happy/sad tears together but it will make you feel his presence I think. And he will be there in spirit smiling down with such fondness. His spirit and God will help you all though this. So you take your time and cry all you want and all you need to hon. Better days are just around the bend as time goes on and you'll always miss him but life continues as well. Take care and be good to yourself!!!~~Toni~~
moluv10
October 31, 2007
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Cry all you need to. It will helP you get through.
StarEyes
October 31, 2007

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Sis,

I sit here looking at this, trying to think of something to say. You are allowed all the tears that fall anytime you feel the need! The only child I have lost was due to a miscarriage, and that was hard enough. I don't know if I would strong enough to go through what you are going through.

All I can do is hold you and let you cry, and listen when you want or need to talk. You are in my prayers everyday.

and love

Nyetta
Andi.
October 31, 2007

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Crying is the best thing you can do, in a saddening and tragic time as this!
I know I can't bring Matt back, or can I know how you're feeling, but as your daughter, I can be there for you, and comfort you as much as I can.
No-one, NO-ONE can know the utter pain and dispair you feel but you.
Cry away my beautiful mum!
Beautiful write, in the memory of a gorgeous son!
Well done, You inspire me to become a better mum myself!
I ♥ You and You know I'm here for you always.
Although not in body, In spirit!
♥ Always ur daughter Dani
Me a poet-maybe
October 30, 2007

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Feel me holding you, you crying on my shoulder . Cry sweetheart, cry. Let the healing tears flow....
All my love
Pappy
storiesuntold
October 30, 2007

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Within my arms honey let the tears flow
In the releas of tears the heart does heal .For you will see when the time is right your heart will begin to mend .But cry as you will and let it all out for your Ap Mom is her with her arms out . Fall into my arms and we shall find a way to let you grieve as a mother should . I am here and love you forever and a day . I understand every word you say . Big hug from Texas and theres a whisper on the air close your eyes and wish me and I will be there .
SignedSinerelyMe
October 30, 2007

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i know how to comfort. but this. i will not touch. i lost my baby brother. and grandparents. but i never had a child. it must burn hotter then the sun. im sorry. and i know that doesnt mean anything. but with tears, im sorry.

great write by the way...

~the sad farewell