You wont see me

I know there's something keeping you from my side,
I kiss the skies and weep my final goodbyes.
It's getting harder to pass the time,
Without you there's no point in my existence.
I tried listening to my hearts final song,
Yet got lost in the rhyme, and found myself alone.
Singing sorrowfully to rid my nightmares.
Waking to a disaster, not listening to the prayers.

Sometimes I get prayed for, and hopes of feeling better.
"..Get well soon"
Just slips my mind
I see blood, I see razors and pills
I see reasons and ways to go.
I'm searching for one to stay.

So far from lonely on the outside,
Though inside is nothing but shattered remains.
I found a line and it grew to you,
I wasn't supposed to pass it.
I feel so empty.

Goodbye baby,
I'm sorry it has to be this way.
I'm not ready for such a change,
And I only hope that you can see
Just how much it's killing me.
You and I can never be.

I was meant for misery.