Lost

Grasping for sanity, but losing my grip, and falling
The sweet abyss welcomes me
Comforting arms envelope me

A velvet voice in my ear
Melodic and charming
Driving me away

I claw my way out
Trying to escape
Time doesn’t exist

Not here
Not ever

I stumble through a forest
The trees bending to caress me
Throwing me off course

The rocks shred my feet
Biting and tearing
My flesh falls away

Dreams turned to nightmares
Light fading to dark
Dark becoming light again
Terror takes a better turn

Spinning in circles
More falling
Can’t find a hold
Slipping further

The laughing
The taunting
There’s that voice again
Less gentle
More bitter

Now it is fading too
Silence
Thank god

But what now?
Where do I go?
Which way is up?
Or better yet…which way is down?

I am in the forest again
The trees are still
Nothing moves…
Except the shadows across the ground
Is there a wind?
Why aren’t the trees moving then?

My vision fails
My mind goes
My body rebels against my thoughts

I want out
I want up
I want to leave

I scream
Cry
Tears flow from my eyes

Let me go!

I open my eyes
I am clinging to the cliff
My knuckles white, and my nails curling
Blue sky above, green forest below
How did I get here?
Which way did I fall?

I can feel my feet slipping
The rocks in my hands crumbling

Not again