A Scar Upon My Heart

my feelings, never previously mutual
suddenly became returned by you that day
you ran up to my house through the rain
knocked loudly, urgently on the door
i stepped outside, just over another crying spell
thinking that you'd never love me back
but as you stood there and looked me in the eyes
i was suddenly aware of what you were saying
oh, what a wonderful feeling it was
an inner warmth in my chest
i hugged you tightly and close
as you apologized for taking so long
you'd finally realized, after all that time
after all the pouring out of my feelings
from within the deepest parts of my heart
that you really did love me in return
i just smiled and cried through it all
my tears of happiness washed away by the rain
as we both became soaked to the bone
we just stood there, finally together
and had our very first kiss
underneath the gray sky
booming thunder, flashing lightning, rain
none of that mattered
i was in heaven

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life became a living hell
only a few short months later
you walked up to my house
again, in the rain
this time, under an umbrella
this time, not alone
you had a girl clinging to your arm
you knocked on my door again
and again, i stepped out into the rain for you
you said you'd been wrong
you hadn't ever really loved me
you were just on the rebound
from being hurt by the girl present
you both realized you still loved each other
you didn't want to hurt me
but you were leaving me for her
she stood in the background, snickering
smiling that smile of hers
bright and gleaming
you turned away from me, never to face me again
as i cried again in the rain
but not from happiness
this time, my tears of sadness
were washed away by the rain

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i moped around the house for weeks
tears constantly streaming down my face
staying in my room day and night
crying myself to sleep
barely eating much of anything
my mother put me on medication
took me to therapy
but nothing could help
no one, not even my friends and family
could heal my poor broken heart
you ripped the rug of love
from underneath my feet
leaving me there, on the ground in tears
you left a scar upon my heart
and although it shall fade
it will never completely heal