I find my words

I find my words
Faltering
When I picture your face
There is nothing I can say
That makes sense anymore
Words
Are meaningless
And empty
And my body is crying out
Sobbing
For something more.
I’ve figured out what love is;
You walk blindly through life
Believing you know yourself
your familiar face,
Until one day
A person holds out a mirror
In front of you
And forces you to look into it
And see
All your flaws
And imperfections
They don’t mean to, you see
They just love you so much
That they know you too well
And you melt together until the
Only thing that remains
Are the incongruent pieces
Of the puzzle you thought you were
Together.

The only problem is I refuse to accept this.
There is still glitter in my eyes
Frosting on my cupcakes,
I was missing my slipper and you
Handed it to me,
As if I didn’t know who you were.
These feelings are so blatant
They are painful.
Not like an old sore scrape that
Tastes sour on your tongue.
Like a fresh cut
Like a baseball bat to the chest.
This is how deep you wound me.
In a place I didn’t know existed inside of me.

My former life is but a blur now.
I’m not quite sure who I was or who I am anymore.
All I know for certain is that you are a part of me I cannot
Afford to lose.
Like a limb on my body
I could not function without.
Crippled and severed
I would crawl
On the ground
Searching for meaning
In all that is suddenly mundane
Without you.

Well baby,
As much as I turn my head
And close my eyes
I needed to see myself.
Thank you for holding
The mirror in front of me
As unintentional as it may be
I realize now we are two separate
People
With two beating hearts
Sewed together
By our love.