She waited... for hours;
Days,
Weeks.
Months.
Even almost a whole year.
Her chest is filled with pain.
She can barley breath,
She wonders if this was meant to be.
Her mind races on the track,
Believing they aren’t real.
She's never fallen so hard for guys,
Nor once has she ever cared.
But why she has given so much to them,
And that now she has no more proof that they exist.
Why can't she get them out of her head?
She stares at her scars,
Her right arm looking like a corset.
She doesn't care,
No one has ever cared for her.
Until she thought they did,
For once she let her guard down.
She's tired of letting the lachrymose free,
But she knows she can't hold it back.
As she will shatter into a million pieces,
And yet this isn't the first time.
She looks out the window waiting,
Looking at the clock.
Late... echoes in her head.
Not real...Drift a long creating a harsh ocean current.
Why did she have to fall so hard?
As the long sleeves take case,
The baggy pants to hide the scars.
She bows her head giving up on her classes;
As well as a reason to continue,
She's never been hurt this badly.
As the songs play on repeat;
She wonders what would happen.
Will she live with her aunt instead of the abuse?
Or will she be able to finally end her weak state,
As she finally lets go.
Letting everything escape;
Her body shaking feverishly,
Sobs louder then ever.
No one cares,
No one ever has.
She's never cried this hard.
As she watches the red liquid drip down;
Her eyes has become a void,
She tried to push herself away from everyone.
In the back of her mind she knew this would happen.
But she got caught up in their words,
She couldn't help but fall for their charm.
As she pressed the blade hard,
Gushing faster ignoring the pain as tears fall.
Ignoring everything around,
Just like the doctor’s voice in her ear.
She doesn't care what happens to her.
She just wished she was loved and it was real.
Bella Knoll
10:29pm 10/26/07
Author notes
1,2. I'm wondering what you think, please tell me.
A contest entry
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This was extremely emotional and my heart breaks knowing that people feel this way. It was a very powerful write.
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powerful
emotional and very well written -
Wow, this was powerful. I could relate somewhat, and it made me feel the emotions it expressed. You're a wonderful writer, so never stop writing.
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Wow. You are an amazing poet. I could honestly feel the emotions you were portraying in each stanza. I can really relate to the situation, too.
"As she pressed the blade hard,
Gushing faster ignoring the pain as tears fall.
Ignoring everything around,
Just like the doctor’s voice in her ear.
She doesn't care what happens to her."
Really. That's amazing.
Keep on writing.
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"She just wished she was loved and it was real.".. You surely have a way with words ... the hold over reader that can slow down or even pause the time .. Dark but beautiful ... very enjoyble write..
Thanks for sharing.. Good Luck!
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Well, here I am again
lol
The imagery you've included is again quite good and I like that in poetry
Thanks for yet another entry!
Leander -
Beautifully written, but very sad. I've only a couple of times resorted to self harm and to the most part it's scratching myself with keys and familiar stuff and making myself bleed. It's a good way of taking away the emotional pain so that physical will prevail, at least you wont have to feel anymore. It's a coping mechanism. If you ever need to talk about your issues, don't hesitate to message me. I know what pain is like through trusting the wrong people and giving all my love and just finding nothing anymore.
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It never fails to amaze me that your poems are all so terribly sad. I'm so sorry sissy, and I really hope they are real, for your sake. I know that would REALLY help, and I'm not sure what to tell you. I can help you with anything, but I don't know how much use I'll be. My favorite stanza is the 5th one. I know how you feel on that. It not being the first time, I mean.
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This is very dark. A depressed mind indeed. The imagery in this is stunning. And the flow flows like the blood at the end of the piece.
This sounds like a woman who has put all her trust and faith in men, only to be disappointed time and time again. Until, finally losing faith with ever finding 'true' love. Very well written indeed.
All the best
Wayne
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