Lovers

Like a spider crawling, my loneliness starts its creeping
Leaving me wishing for someone to hold onto
Melancholy and fear twist in a cyclone of despair
Leaving me stuck and panicked
The clock keeps ticking, as I count all its tocking
For every tick, my heart drops a inch
For ever tock, my heart wants to stop
And as all the ticks and tocks turn to minutes and hours
My mind races with manic efficiency
Solutions of my problems become plain to see
But stuck as I am, I'm doomed to see, all my chances float away from me
So back I am to form new plans, why you might ask
But don't, you just wouldn't understand
Of coarse you wouldn't, and quite frankly my dear, all's truth is you shouldn't
Your too fragile and weak, your mind is meek
If you could really see all your sanity would leak
your sanity is the fact of your ignorance
Your whole reality is just one trick
You want to see reality?

Watch the death throes of a tormented soul
As sorrow finally lets its icy grip go
A lifetime of anger is released
Can you hear its scream?
With each slice I step closer to my goal
33 slits, am I deranged?
Or have I become a catatonic soul.
Waiting patiently for a clue
With each slice I start to feel new
Under the moon is where I feel at home
But the suns peaking above the horizon
Bringing with it a new day of abuse
They call me manic, They I say, just can't understand it
To slice your flesh, to feel the blood drip
Making revers of freedom, crimson bliss
Soon scars will form
Monuments of a tortured soul
Reminders of happiness
Blissful, catatonic freedom
Just a slash away
From stepping out of this cage called sanity
Why are you crying my dear?
Are you mad at me?