living with this secret

I still remember the first time it happened
I was so scared,
I tried to understand why, Is this the way you
showed you cared.
It was late at night, mummy was not home
You were their to protect me, we were there alone
You told me This will be our secret, just you and me
We would play many games, that was how it was to be.
But daddy those games hurt, I dont wanna play no more
Why daddy cant I tell mum, My private parts are sore
I remember the pain, it was so severe
But that did not stop you, it went on for many years
I think i was about six or seven, when it finally came to an end
I didnt not understand, you were a sick man
I have now grown up, Iam sixteen soon
My life is spiralling out of control, All because of you
I tried to numb the pain, with drugs, and turned out to be a slut
Or because of you, you fucked my life up
Iam now in rehab, trying to take control
Trying to be a normal teenager, before I get to old
I will never forgive you, or will ever understand
How you destroyed a little girls life
You are just a very sick man