So you will know

sit by the phone waiting for you to call,
with tears sliding down my cheek.Wondering, just where did I go wrong ? Was I not good enough to receive your love,Was I not lovely enough to hold your eye ? Did my heart not reach you when you needed someone the most? Was my shoulder not soft enough to lean on ?
Quietly, I sound my love for you,my voice playing a tune on deaf ears.Knowing, Im worth way more then enough,still I grovel when you beckon my ear.Drinking your sound as though my lips are parched from an undying thirst.Even with words that slice thru my core,to hear you love someone else,I still want more.Silently , I take the blow, over and over ,its not me you love! this I've been told. Still regardless what it may cost, I look in your eyes and again I am lost.
Time after time.Mintues become hours , hours become days.I sit waitng,my mind in a haze .How do I move on ? When your like a hunger, I need to feed.How do I resist ? when thru my heart you continue to twist. How do I let go ? When so afraid of a glance from you, I might miss. Just to be there in your presence fills an ache from my soul. I guess I'm writing this so you will know.