Swirling out of control,
Drowning my sorrows quickly.
Snorting line after line,
Ingesting shot after shot.
Trying to blur out the memories,
Why does this hurt so deeply?
I don't know how to keep breathing,
Doing stupid thing after stupid thing.
What is it im running from?
Why do I feel the need to be numb?
Digging that razzor deep inside,
Killing the pain lingering within.
I'm a failure, spinning out of reach,
Waking up in the hospital with an overdose.
What have I become? I'm a disgrace,
Pushing everyone away who wants to care.
I'm digging myself deeper and deeper,
Becoming more of a stranger each day.
Wondering when I'm going to finally suceed,
Stop existing and hurting everyone around.
Drugs, alcohol and razzors are all that matters,
I'm a royal fuck up, shitting on everyone.
Watch me as I slowly kill myself,
Hating myself and what I've become, I'm sorry.
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A poem about my life and where i am right now...struggling with cutting, alcohol and drug abuse..this is a brutally honest poem i wrote after waking up in the hospital...what the fuck is wrong with me...
Please tell me what you think
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i like the line
Why does this hurt so deeply?
I don't know how to keep breathing,
i just love it, nice job
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Truth be told Chrissy I feel that you are turning to drugs cutting and alcohol as an outlet to get over this heart break and pain you are going through. you know deep down that is not the answer to your problem. suicide same way is not the answer either. personally I would really consider and take to heart checking yourself into a clinic for rehabiliatation and well trying to clean up your life style and what you are doing and attempt to move on. I am just being brutally honest my friend and I mean well. It is very hard to do I realize but you know deep down if you do that you will feel alot better you won't be cured but you'll slowly feel good inside. hang in there and remember you're never alone
Signed, Paul
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I know how you feel
I am so sorry for all that you have been going through. Has something happened in your life, ie death or abuse from friends and or family? if you need anyone to talk to I'm here...
-Hidden Fortress
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hey hun this is a great poem it is good to let your emotions out! I know you are in soooo much pain right now and im always going to be by your side!! well im sure you know that by now!
I hope you know that you can change things if you really try. I understand that its hard but there are a lot of people who care for you in this world and we all want you to be happy and we all want the best for you! And walking this path isnt so great well Im sure you know after what happened last night! a lot of us care for you and I really want you to know that! keep writing hun!
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