what we have here is another case of self-indulgently insolent inadequacy ((& i'm truly disgusted))

[hello, i am a fool and a believer, i live in a whale's belly
and my favorite pastime is turning prose into poetry]

you couldn't play any instrument, you couldn't sing
you don't have enough talent to write even mediocre lyrics
which means that you can't be a star - but still you can fade like one
falling from grace is a field open to everyone
even a boy like you can attain a personal tragedy
if he stares at the razor blades and scales with determinacy & persistency

&& he said, i don't love you, no, really, i don't love you at all
&& i said, love is amazing, really, but lust, too, can be pretty cool 

[hello, i'm the girl who worries about the delicate, pretty boys in porn movies,
asking whether they do what they do with those fat old men willingly.]

and if you hate your existence, i can understand that
((even if i don't necessarily agree))
but if you exist to hate - as in your case -
this is generally regarded as a problem
((all this hating business - you seem to enjoy every minute of it))
((the way you act, you almost made me believe that being a waste of breath
is the most brilliant pastime ever invented))

the line between love & hate is told to be thin
 - the exact way the line between living & existing
isn't.

[hello, i am perfecting my talent of not giving a damn about what you think of me
my parents think I stained my mind with all these nonsense on passion && liberty]

you say you are sick, sick of it all & you want to call it quits
yes, I've heard you clearly, so you can stop screaming
and no, you can't talk to the authorities right now, they are busy working
( - for the society's benefit, of course - they are burning books & witches)

so let's play strip poker && Russian roulette until the morning breaks

(if you win, i promise to stop pointing out all your mistakes)

[hello, i used to try so hard to be morbid, now it comes naturally.]

but I think I have decided not to scan every room I'm in for sharp objects

&& I think I have decided to become more than a waste of space,

you know, to realize my dreams.

you are the worst example ever & my greatest inspiration