When it happened I told myself
I’d never forget your face
Your smell, the way you made me feel
Protected and safe
Like nothing could harm me,
That I was your special girl,
The one who lit up your day
And gave meaning to your world.
When it happened I vowed
To be all that you’d hope
For, to be the one who’d
Help the others to cope
Without you here,
To wipe their tear stained eyes
As they remembered you silently
Heads turned towards the skies.
When it happened, Nan, I said,
I’d never let you fade away
From my memory or thoughts
That you frequent day after day.
Now and when I think of you
In company or innocent solitude,
My state of disbelief remains,
The child within reclaims my mood.
She refuses to believe you’re gone
And waits to see you enter the room
That she can’t visit even now-
It’s been ten years and yet too soon.
Author notes
I wrote this in memory of my nan...even though it's been ten years, i find her death hard to contenplate. guess we never really get over death.
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