I Talk To 13 Year Old Me

Just started WES I remember oh yes,

those days I miss I must confess.

You fear leaving dad on that tuesday,

you beg him not to turn away.

James that Tara warned you about,

you'll end up being an item, going out.

Just for a week then you'll go with Karl too,

because his alliance was never true.

Karl will touch you up and call you names,

he'll say you liked it, you'll get all the blame.

From then on out you'll be called a slut,

touch and prodded like a dirty mut.

You'll date James but he'll hurt you,

again he will not remain true.

When you're at your lowest as well,

just coming of medication, going through hell.

Karl still bad but not to you,

he'll do anything to protect you too.

He's so smitten he'll do what you say,

and with his heart he'll never stray.

Karl does bad things through and through,

though to other girls and not to you.

You break with James after two years,

full of woe, police stations and fears.

Then you'll be with Karl oncemore,

still feeling like a filthy whore.

But he boosts your mood and says,

"You're better than they are today."

He'll be there for you, love so true,

you do all you have left to prove you do.

You let him take your virginity,

giving all you have left in sincerity.

Months later his physical pain gets bad,

you get upset and he gets mad.

You'll cry many a tears as you are scared,

but for a break up word, you're not prepared.

"I just need some time alone for awhile,"

after two weeks quiet he utters so hostile.

Then softens up ending the call with 'I Love You'

You answer back, "So do I and I always will do."

You mean those words and now you'll see,

you're still a lonely sad girl, you are me.

This breakup lullaby just weeks ago passed,

but your hearts broken, harassed.

You know that all he did for you,

couldn't make him totally forget all he'd do.

All the times he protected you and held you close,

all those times you cherish the most.

That is what happens with us in love,

when all you do is pray to up above.

That you're love, the guy who gave you a bad name,

would come back and say I love you again.

Lifes so strange you've got understand,

this is not a request, more of a demand.

Don't go about things in a different way,

I'm glad I've got to where I have today.

Karl taught me lessons and James too,

throughout all that I've been through.

I want Karl still and can't stand James,

I've learnt about sorry and I've learnt about blame.

The only thing that you should perhaps effect,

is your flirtatious ways, lack of respect.

Maybe if you showed openly how much you care,

the situation we are in (in my time) wont be there.

I thank you for listening and I must go and converse,

with 21 year old me to see if life gets any worse.

But just promise me you'll be strong that's what we need,

our love and our sanity, our hope and the consequence we must lead.