To much pain and to sick to write
My world is a full on painful fight
Sometimes drugs become a need
Giving a few hours that I am pain free
Sleeping is on molten glass forever burning
Nails feel embedded within my brittle bones
Each dawning day is sometime alone I must face
Suicide always an option so far I have denied
I cannot show weakness or all will be lost
My world is a war where drugs and iron will clash
The will to win over the chronic agony
The drugs an addictive solution to freedom
But a choice id rather not use as a weapon
For the end result just isn’t worth the price
So fight on I must and hide what is going on inside
Put on a brave face and keep my emotions locked away
Take one step at a time so no one can see the real me
Only the illusion of someone who is actually happy.
BY the real me
Author notes
Taking a break from all poetry for a couple of weeks, to get a handle on the chronoic pain, and the fatigue from lack of sleep, my mind is liturally closing down.
my words are becoming less tactful and more agressive as i try to hide what i am growing through from my friends and family.
Ill be back in soon not gone forever just need time to get some sembalance of control back in my life.
Take care everyone and look after your selves.
Karl AKA Kindredblood
may have typo's or mis spelling, will correct later on. ty
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A very emotional write! Your honesty just touches me so deeply. I have been in this place you speak of, I have used drugs as a means to escape the pain. I have no answers, somehow I made it through and now live in a world that is far from perfect...but that I now control. For me, I guess it was just the realisation that there are people out there that do care and are willing to take the time to listen and understand. Anytime you need to talk, please reach out, I will never turn you away.
Take care
Annie
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your words are so true i mean i am not physicly sick. at least not that i know of right now but i hide away how i feel. starting to hide behind drugs and trying so hard to keep suicide an option. i dont know if this is going to make any sence.
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I know a lot of how you feel here.. seems like things just get worse instead of better and the only thing we can do anymore is fight though it. anymore you have to make your own happyness and it's hard. just remeber there are people that care about you and when your down send us an email or just chat with us we do listen and just maybe we can help you.
Love always
you friend
Calentice aka alora
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The Real me
Well time is a healer, but by sharing with those who love and care for you is a problem to half.
Trust someone to talk too, and then you may see a brighter light.
Hugs to you
Julie x
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I love you dear Uncle I will be here when youcome back.Know that I love you very much and Im sending you many many hugs.All my love
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You will be missed. But it is understandable. Much love and hugs.
Please do come back as soon as you are able
The write is very nicely done. Thank you for sharing and the notes.
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