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I Didn't Know HE Loved Me

I used to think God was this big fearful spirit , i look back now to find as i have walked 41 years now and most of that with The Lord , that He is just the opposite . I found Him to be many things to me!

My God

my Saviour

my friend

my brother ,

best my best thing i know is He is a great Father and Husband to me.

Here is a story a testimony of his great love , i learned from alot of trail and error.

 


Moved in the middle of no where , closest person a mile or two away . 3 little kids, no phone , no car.
A husband off night after night doing drugs never there . I needed love! One day i just got mad!!!
I mean very mad!!!
I screamed, at God telling Him Why.. couldn't He just make my husband love me , Fix it! I told God I was supposed to lean on God but I couldn't physically touch him , i couldn't feel Him hold me ! I asked Him Why? He thought I shouldn't just go do what my husband did then at least i could feel love!!
I fell to the floor crying , I closed my eyes and just sat there .
Then i felt as if i was being held , rocked like a child ...I heard a still voice saying gently ..I can Touch You , I can Hold You .
You just never cried out for me to do so. 

You never was in this condition before,You finally need me ...I basked in that moment of sweet glory .
Just a woman , alone , who felt i had no one, found God could hear me.

I will say i am not what you would call Religous , I don't go to church like i should but I do love Jesus with all my heart and soul. I find him in everyday life, in everything. When there is no one to hold , HE holds me in his hands.

I just had to tell you that story cause its true .There are many stories i have to tell but for now i leave you with that , a gift from me to you.

 

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  • FransB gold member
    October 24, 2007

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    This is a profound testamony written from the heart. I found it sad that you were so alone, and that you by human nature craved for human touch. But the joy in reading God's fatherly [and husbandary] love for you allows me some peace. It took me back to St Paul in prison, and how the Lord himself attended to his pain, fear and loneliness. You have learnt, no experienced a wonderful 'reaching out of the Lord', and come to think that we are so significantly small in this universe, His love is so great and individual for each of us. You have blessed me with this write. FransB.


  • 2lullabyhaven
    October 15, 2007

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    wow, this is a wonderful piece you have shared. I appreciate the candor of it lol


  • ScarletO gold member
    October 14, 2007

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    I have to agree with Jeremy who made a comment below. It is as if God had been speaking all along, but you were not ready to listen. He saw the opportunity for your door was opened. Never forget that moment for it is your moment that brought you to him. Keep striving for the relationship to enhance it. Thank you for this journey.

  • Liquid memories
    October 14, 2007

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    an exciting experience for you that aided you to get through the stuff. I am sure you have more for God is all powerful able to do things beyond human comprehension. Thanks for sharing.


  • Jeremy0826 silver member
    October 14, 2007

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    This is awesome and very deep! It's great to see that you have such a loving respect for the Lord. I think we all lose sight of the fact that he's always there no matter what. Sometimes you just have to look deeper and further than you ever did before to find him. I can really relate to this and I thank you for writing such a great piece. Take care my friend!




    Jeremy0826

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