Here I sit reflecting on my life's journey all from before
There are many things I've struggled with, right to the core
Deep within myself, I've had different events and difficult trauma
Inside my head I sometimes feel nothing, and other times it's all just drama
A recovering drug addict myself starting from the age of twenty-four
I've raised my children in a Godly sober home, that is for sure
I believed if I worked on all my issues, my children would not have to suffer
Then to top it off postpartum depression, now thirty-two it gets tougher
Working at recovery so very hard, more than most others I know in life
Yet I often wonder and ask God why do I experience so much strife?
I guess for me to share with you how I'm learning to be more strong
God I always call on your name and my life keeps moving along
Truthfully if it wasn't for God I would not be here or alive today
My life with myself has been for me and others a interesting parade
I question God different times in my life, because I feel like I'm a show
Moving along with very hard life lessons and struggles that many do not know
I couldn't even begin to share everything, in just one written poem
In many of situations and because of circumstances I often just roam
You see I've just been living in recovery in my life for many of reasons
Not just drugs, bi-polar, child abuse, codependency with different seasons
Now my son just passed away of an overdose, just recent September 16, 2007
My son made choices, he had a disease just like me, now he is in heaven
Is all I know is the more I think I know, the less I know is for certain
For I do know God is the only way and I no longer hide behind a curtain
My heart is open to let healthy people that cross my path, help me to move
I've stayed sober no matter what that is for sure, and not always so smooth
With God and my friends and angels in my path, I'm able to see and look
With all the difficulties in my life I could definetly write a great book
A book would be to share my experience, strength and hope of me, personally
For I believe all this has happened to me, to help others most certainly
In suffering there is so much pain but get up and move, don't just sit
The miracle of recovery is that others do care and some are a perfect fit
We are all different but the feelings are really the same, in about everyone
So no matter how much you have suffered it is to say to another, see the sun
The light will shine again so move and share yourself and have some real fun
God and the healthy people, not quiting is the miracle and than you've won!!!!!!!!
Written by: Kelle Marie Stavron
October 12, 2007
Bronze trophy winner
Honorable mention
Adding your comment:
And for what it's worth, my prayers are with you.
Dee
