the world of even if.

I don't think I could go back
even if a black hole opened up before me,
Your everlasting smirk
and shrug, "Do you love me?"
It will be burned within my mind
even if I went before it,
I would be haunted
even if only wondering what it meant.

I don't think I could be with you
even if you took back all the harsh things
you sang into my head,
Your voice, like a fallen angel
the broken feathers slip through my fingertips.

I wonder if I ever seriously thought about
the pain you laid upon my ribcage,
the warmth from my heart burning through it,
I even wonder if you ever loved me
or if I was just a memory you created
to hide the horrors of yourself.

I don't think I could ever be so vunerable
again for anyone, after letting myself
be devoured by you and your Cheshire smile.

Even if the world caved in like we thought it would,
and we hung by two strings alone,
slowly swinging together in the dark.