My future seems gone without you
I had so many hopes and dreams
A baby I wanted so bad
I felt broken at the seams.
Your life was too short
I wanted you to stay
I always question myself
about what happened on that day.
I know it wasn't my fault
what's meant to be will be
but that is something I cannot accept
I want you here with me
I write you letters all the time
I tell you how much I love you
I wish to God everyday
that there was more that I could do
They took you from my arms
covered you with a sheet
My anger took over quickly
you were my baby, oh so sweet.
I left the hospital empty handed
overcome with grief
I had already planned your funeral
I was in such disbelief
I can't help but wonder how your doing
are you happy where you are?
I know you watch me from above
I know your shining in the stars
I think you know my love for you
I speak it everyday
I'll say it for the rest of my life
until we meet on my final day.
I love you Caleb....Today, Tomorrow and Forever
Author notes
Please listen to this song. The link is posted here. Whenever I think of Caleb, this song plays, so to me...its his way of letting me know he is with me. Please listen
I'll Be There By: The Escape Club
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V9mEYZxkDsM
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I'm speechless..
I feel so truly honored to have read such a magnificent poem. The emotion you portrayed was so real and so heartbreaking. I'm sure Caleb is still watching over you with a full, understanding smile. I honestly don't know what else to say; I'm still in a state of awe. Bravo, you have written a masterpiece!
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wow
a truly amazing poem, so heartfelt, this captures the sadness and confusion so accurately. the reader feels your pain with you. this is truly heartbreaking and brought tears to my eyes as i know how it feels to carry and lose children, great write
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from the heart very beautiful write sad and eye opening to how frail life really is wonderful write so sorry about ur baby
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Beautiful and oh my heart breaks for you
Such a loving poem and yes the children rests in Gods arms awaiting our homecoming yet hears our every word
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sorry you lost your son love.
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this is sad im sorry this happend to you auntie
i love you love rhianna
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"I know it wasn't my fault
what's meant to be will be
but that is something I cannot accept
I want you here with me"
That's how a lot of us feel. It takes awhile to realise that wanting them back so bad is not a selfish thing, and you have the right to be angered that they haven't been able to come with you. But then you need to remember that a part of your heart will always be with them, and a part of theirs will be with you.
Beautiful piece.
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Thank you for the beautiful comment. I know he is with me. I can feel him all around me and that gives me much peace. Though I miss him terribly and wonder what my sweet little 8 yr old would be like. The pain seems so fresh still...I dont feel like I will ever heal
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You will heal. We all will. Being able to write about it is one step towards it. Just never forget him, because he'll always remember you. That's what I believe anyway.
<3
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Aw that is so sweet
Im sorry for your loss
Great write
Good luck in my contest
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that was beautiful! i almost cried! thats so sad, im sorry! very polished good job!
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That was a very beautiful poem. A piece about love and loss that flows well, plain and simple. However, very touching and relatable.
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Beautiful, sad and powerful. Your words have truely discribed such pain and sorrow. Thanks for sharing your writing.
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Beautiful poem I really got emotional about the story behind it. great rhyme scheme as well as the thoughts that are written.
I also liked the hypothetical questions too.
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Thanks for your very kind comment
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This was so hard for me to read... My doctors told me at almost 6 months that it may be for the best if I terminted my pregnancy as my baby would be born with multiple birth defects and would more than likely not live outside the womb. We made the decision to continue to carry her and for us the outcome was wonderful. She proved them wrong and we have been blessed. Thank you so much for sharing this beautifully written tribute to your son with us.
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this is the realest thing that i've read in forever, if this was fake you'd be sick. i'm very sorry to hear about this, very. i have one on the way, and i don't know what i'd would do with myself if this happens to me. so in some small little retrospect way i understand how you feel, how you felt, keep up the real ass writeing, don't let anything be to difficult to put down on paper, or the keyboard--------nathan ritchey -
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Thank you
It is always hard for me to write about my firstborn son and how I lost him. It helps me to heal and be at peace with it. I have been blessed with 4 more boys since I lost him almost 9 years ago. I knew I would lose him when I was 4 months pregnant, I chose to carry him and I did, to 42 weeks. It was the best and most rewarding experience in my life and I would do it all over again just to see his sweet face. Congrats on your little one on the way and thank you for your very kind comment!
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this is very beautiful honey, and he does watch over you always... I give you all my love, and blessings love you bunches again best to you in the contest, this was an excellent write...
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aww...this breaks my heart. I know you love him so much still. This poem is beautifully expressed.
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awww mum
tis is beautiful but so sad...
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this is truly beautiful. i to have lost a child and went through very much the same experience. i hope you can accept my sympathy on your loss... we never forget but they are always with us.. good luck with your contest
cheers
Jen
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heartbreaking....
I'm so sorry for your loss. Knight70
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This is so sad...it takes me to the point of tears. I hope this isn't a true story, but instinct tells me it is. The rhyming in this piece is wonderful, and I absolutely love the background.
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yes it is a true story. I lost my firstborn son at birth to a fatal birth defect. Thank you for your kind words and comment
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He knows you love him this is such a sad write thank you for your entry and sharing.Best wishes and much love.
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Wow! I love this poem. It was written so well and with such great emotion. It gave me the chills and brought me to tears. I love it! I hope to read more of your poetry in the near future!
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