I been doing thinking,
About my sexuality,
And those who surround me.
I don't know if the kid up front,
Is gay or straight,
A homophobic or he's ok with the lifestyle.
I don't know if the girl next to me notices,
That I look her.
I don't know if the teacher that put her arms around me,
To show that she cared,
Knew I was a lesbian.
I don't know if my father will ever come back around,
Ever since I came out.
I don't know if the girl next to me in the locker room notices,
That I look down instead of around,
Because of being afraid of being called a pervet,
Since I am a lesbian amongst tons of girls.
I don't know if the woman who walks by me on the street,
Is hiding a homosexuality secret.
I don't know if my first love,
Was truly into girls,
Since she ended up with a guy.
I don't know if the one I am with,
Is going to be in my future,
Or if she is going to find someone better.
I don't know if people really see me for me,
Or I am just another black sheep.
I don't know if I will get the answers,
For some of the questions,
But what I do know,
Is I am not afraid to be who I really am,
No matter how much people may hate me,
Or what they think.
Author notes
4. choose your own option, and let me know what it is! just keep with the theme!
I have been thinking about what do people think about me being a lesbian, how would they react, and things like that. The poem in itself is somewhat explanatory I think if you need more insight let me know and I will give it to you.
9) Sexuality
A contest entry
- GLBTIQ options! by butchbec.
660 points, ended December 7, 2007, 6 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - Sexuality by JustAnotherIdoit.
450 points, ended January 6, 2008, 7 entries
Silver trophy winner
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - Optionsss cos they is the best =] by Ilma.
875 points, ended January 11, 2008, 19 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
Please tell me what you think
Comments
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I loved this poem. There are a lot that can relate to this, me being one of them, this is a very great write.
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Wow, I love this! I really, really do love this. Remember Mr. Rogers? "It's you I like, the way you are right now..." That was the song he'd sing on his show to us! Just remember there are those who choose to judge and those who have been judged and know first hand how it feels to be isolated or labeled. So I come to you as a friend and I don't know you, but you have uncovered a many hidden emotions that so many girls may be feeling. You are a gem created by God! Yes God, made you and knew every single thought and way that you would be! Anyway, stick with those that truly love you and you will find the way to the truest happiness!!! Thanks for sharing how you feel with us here on AP!!!
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that was great
i loved your poem. i can, for sure, relate to this. i have the same questions when i go out and see someone. I'm out to my parents and my friends, but i don't go around telling everybody. i liked this poem!!!
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i feel totally in sync with you. i know how your feeling. when i came out i was into sports. and every girl on whatever team i was on would always think id jump on them and rape them. even though half of them know the'd like it lmao.
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intresting
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gosh I like this one it awsome u tell how u really feel and that is one of the things that i like bout u it is soo awsome and i luv this poem it has to be one of my favorites to.. damn I have a lot of favoirtes don't I ? lol
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Congrats on the Honorable Mention and Silver Trophy. I love the fact that no matter what problems arise due to your sexuality or the unanswered questions that will forever remain within the vaults of your mind- you will never stop being you. The fact that you are proud to be you is a wonderful thing. So many people get caught up in the problems of everyday life and lose themselves within society. It's nice to meet somebody who does not and will not fall into that category.
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We've all been through this before. I have. Still kinda go through it time to time. Very good write.
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Good for you! So many of my glbt friends have been ashamed of their sexuality, but not you, and I'm proud of you for having the courage to show the world who you really are, whether they like it or not... Obv., I can't relate, as a straight female, but in the end, we all bleed red, don't we? Love the person, not the gender... You have absolutely NOTHING to be ashamed of... Go and get 'em, girlfriend!
Love and light always
♥
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Thank you so much for the comment. It means a lot ya know that not everyone is like homophobic. This was just a way for me to express myself and who I am. Thanks again for the comment.
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Wowza!
I love this
I relate quite a bit.
Its an amzing write.
Ive been looking ove a few of your writes...
And i think your pretty amazing!
<3
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Thanks for the comment. I'm glad you like it. As for pretty amazing I don't know about that.
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You've got some spelling and grammar issues with this. There seems to be some words missing near the beginning such as 'or he's ok with', should have an if I think, and 'next me notices', next TO me?. Anyway, corrections aside, I really like the idea of this one, and I think it really shows the confusion and uncertainty surrounding homosexuality and other peoples views. I also love the strength at the end of not being afraid to be who you are despite the judgement. Thank you for entering and good luck, Hannu xx
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i used to have days like this all the time, where i was always wondering what ppl think. now i dont care what they think lol. good job
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thats beautiful. i love it. great job.
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there is nothing wrong with you nore will there ever be you chose what you chose because that is where you are suppose to be.
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Thanks so much for the comment. I am proud to be who I am. I just wish some others could at least accept it.
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I couldn't leave this comment unanswered:
I know it hurts to feel like people won't accept you, or that they just plain don't... But in the end, it's you who has to live with you, not them, and if they don't like it, it's their loss. Best of luck to you
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Outstanding write! I can relate in my own way.
I can relate to this very well. Being a gay male completely growing up. I would look down and try not to turn my eyes away from myself or what I was doing for fear that I would be called derogatory names, or get beat up by the guys in the locker room, or worse forced to do something that I didn't want to do.
I especially like the way that you ended though. I fel the same way. I don't care what people think. I am going to be me no matter what. If they don't like it then they are the ones' with the problem, not me.
I really like this poem, and I thank you for sharing.
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Thanks so much for the comment. I am glad you liked the poem. It was just a tough time when I wrote the poem. Got all my feelings out instead of doing something else. Thanks I am really glad you liked it.
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the locker room thing was perfect! i like how you ponder things like 'would she be so caring if she knew?' that's like on every gay kid's mind. you describe adolescence itself nicely!
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This is an awesome start, and youve clearly told me how you feel about all this, coming out is really hard, but feels so much better once youve done it. Just a couple of tips: check the grammar a little, i know im being picky, just that it will flow better and also, maybe try to show me how you feel with imagery and emotion rather then telling me, let me into your world hun
great effort! and thanks for entering this comp!
Bec
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adolescense can be so damn confusing, nice write
RtheO
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i really want to thank you for placing yourself out there like this and allowing the vulnerability. i really wish the best for you. dusty
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in my mind as long as you are honest with yourself it does not matter what anyone else thinks. i do realise however that, that is not always possible. there are way too many ppl out there are are homophobic and would rather trash us than accept us. we are all the same, our only difference is that we love different ppl. whether we are black sheep or pink sheep makes no difference, we are still ppl with feelings.
when i 'came out', i was married to a man, who threatened me that if i didnt tell my family that i was a lesbian he would, the very next day i told them. it was not an issue for them and have accepted my wife as part of our family.
anyway im waffling on here.
wonderfully written with lots of raw emotion.
ang
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Thanks for the comment. I being a teenager (17) have thought a lot about these things. I am happy with who I am just what other people think of me. I have started to go use to it but at times it still gets me. I can say that it is all true. When I had gym class I never looked around at the others girls since well like it said being afraid of being called a pervert. Though our gym teacher is a lesbian. I have confided in her on one matter but that wasn't it. I am going to be taken gym soon and I still fear that something could happen. I know I shouldn't be thinking like that but I can't help it. Thanks again for the comment.
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i really like this. i know what you are talking about when you mention the locker room thing... very awkward. this poem made me very happy!
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Very emotional and thoughtful piece. The truth is, the answer to most of your questions, it doesn't matter. It doesn't matter who you are, what you are, what your lifestyle is, it doesn't matter how other people see it...it is you, your life and your choices, you can only be yourself and you can only live and be proud of what you do, what other people thinks is secondary.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying other people "don't matter", what really matters is that you are happy within yourself and proud of yourself. There is nothing to fear in that. If other people don't understand you, that cannot be helped, but you have no reason to fear, to bow down or lower your eyes to anyone, no matter what. We have enough problems hating ourselves without taking the weight of other peoples judgements on our shoulders.
Good write.
(sorry for the long comment).
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awww, that's exactly the way I feel. Wish i could be out tho. But I could really connect with everything you said and be like yeah I was there too. I love it, amazing job.
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baby i love it and its impossible to find someone better than you because you are the greatest and you are the one w/ my heart not anyone else
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awww!! i really like this.
it's how i feel most of the time.
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awwwww!
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yes, that's how it goes these days
We're all kind of mixed up about these things but at least we're not pretending.
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good so far baby
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