Oh my God please don't take my son, I'm so sad
Not like you did he was doing so good, now I'm mad
You gave him to me as a special gift my son
I miss him so terribly we so often had great fun
Just now finally three months sober and you took him away
He was in love and engaged we needed him to stay
We were all so excited a wedding to plan and babies to come
What happened where did those old friends come from
Those damn drugs and all those old friends don't care
Misery in their own addiction destroy I do swear
I'm in such a place of agonizing pain and rage
I wasn't ready for this I feel like I'm in a cage
I'm a lioness mother ready to kill those who preyed on my son
Watch out you out there this mother is raging you are done
A mother's child you never ever mess with you will die
I can't wait to get you both for I know who you are this is no lie
You both have to live with the fact you caused my son to fall
Agonizing over what actually happened yes you deserve this wall
Stuck in a place of hell really because my son now had died
You both try to cover up your mistake but we know you both lied
So you will pay and I can sit back and work out the pain in me
But you will have to answer to God for what you did, God will see
So there you have it I can let go of both of you who did this
I do have to live with,"No God Don't Take My Son" this I did not wish!
Written by: Kelle Marie Stavron
October 7, 2007
Author notes
Peer pressure in today's society in the drug world is out of control for sure. My son died and just used in one day after achieving 3 months of sobriety! We were all having so much fun at the beach and his fiance' and I were so excited for my son and her to have a wedding and family. Life was filled with love and in one day friends came along and dragged him down to his death. The death of my beautiful son on Sept.16, 2007
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See what old drug friends can do they could give a damn where they actually can take you. My son's death, and I'm pissed!!
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wow
That actually scares me, I just quit doing all the drugs i was involved with, however it took me 2 hospitalizations and moving outta state and away from primary family. Anyway, it must have taken soo much for you to be able to write this, you have such courage and potiental, this is an amazing write and this truly touched me. Thank you so much for entering my contest and i wish you the best of luck! Keep up the great work and stay strong! -
Hoodwink!!!
Such a terrible tragedy about your son, I shed tears as i read this poem. I am so so sorry this happened to your son.
Love & light
Debbera
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Hoodwinked
Drugs are a horrible thing in our society... I am a high school student, and this week was our red ribbon week... and I saw kids that I *know* to do drugs wearing those stupid little ribbons... and it's a shame, truly... I am wordless and frustrated beyond all reasoning... and I understand how much you've suffered because of those chemicals that manage to just screw everything up... today's kids think that they need to "live" while they are young, and they think that doing drugs, drinking, having sex and acting stupid are a part of living... and they don't realize that they face the chance of not living if they do this... it's a damn shame...
you manage to convey your pain and your lamentations so well.... this is just wonderful writing, and I feel for your loss.
Be blessed
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Hood-winked!
This is such a sad story, and so beautifull written. This is a tragic story, and I'm sure others will learn from it, and I hope that offers you some comfort. I hope that your heart heals in time, and all the best to you family
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Hood-Winked!
This was a very sad poem and a poem that definitely showed anger because it definitely does hurt to lose those you love. But I know that simple words can't heal those words,but i am quite sure that God can because remember that He too lost his son though he came back to life, but He does know how you feel.And those old friends will pay for what they did because God was definitely watching and just know that He is with you. Isaiah 41:10.
I love you.
....Simply Me♥
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The Truth.....
Hey Drug lords....Hey Dealers...WISE UP, in the long run...YOU WILL PAY and pay dearly. The money you make will do you NO good. Your fate is SEALED...You have only ONE option to avoid all the pain and suffering you will otherwise receive as your reward...
The one great thing about all this is you will do it to yourselves...YOU WILL BE YOUR OWN DOWNFALL !
WRITE ON MY DAUGHTER !
God loves you - I love you
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There's so much truth in your words. Drugies don't care what happens to the other guy, 'come on, just join us', they cajole.
I'm so sorry for you loss, as I've told ou before, and I hope your pain loses it's strength soon. In the meantime, grieve, write, weep... and smile for the time you had together. It will get better.
Dee
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There are several stages to grief:
Shock or Disbelief
Denial
Anger
Bargaining
Guilt
Depression
Acceptance and Hope
Anger, unrealistic bargaining, depression... this is our struggle against "real" problems in the outside world, but also against our own inner demons. It's okay to be angry, it's expected. It's part of the process. Everyone has to deal with things in their own way, in their own time. Keep the faith in your higher power. Stay close to other family members.
Seek help. I don't think you're getting all you need on AP. We give condolences and sympathies but we are not equip to counsel.
Since you use the Internet, here are some links:
http://www.boniface.cc/grief_and_loss.htm
http://www.sedona.com/lp-grief.aspx
http://www.bereaved.com/index.html?s=How%20to%20Deal%20with%20Grief
Much Love ♥
Renee
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drugs and old drug friends are killers for sure, I am pissed too! My heart goes out for you........ Take one day at a time and the rest will follow.
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I am so very sorry for your loss. There are no words here that I could say that could compare. I would like to commend you for, amidst your grief, finding a voice, and sharing your story. The healing process is slow, but it's good that you are addressing your anger at those that played a hand in your son's death. Keep writing. I hope it helps you.
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May the blessing of peace flood you.
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I understand
every emotion you described here. My only child a son killed himself at the age of 23. He was also into bad friends and drugs. I cannot help you with your pain, I wish I could. Just know that there is someone here that understands and cares.
Judy
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I am so sorry to hear of your loss and your drink problem but alcohol is not the answer - I am sure it will get better as the years go by.
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My dear sister,
I truely understand your anger and glad you are getting it out , i needs to come out for you to heal!
I know your broken heart is pleading with God as to why? There is no real answer to that except He (God) holds the keys to life and death.
Its sad that drugs was the reason but God see's more than we do . I have not lost a child so i cant say how you should feel but my heart did get angry and cry with you as i read this. I used to do drugs and i do know sometimes it was so hard to say no not to the friends but the the lifestyle.
I live with a addict and wathing him over the years has been hard and he was clean for 6 months once ..3 months ones or twice .
He went to rehabs many times .
I know why he does them , but cant figure out how to make him stop ..
Sometimes we cant control things .
Just go with the though that no matter what your son did love you!!!!!!!!!!
God will heal you although there will always be apart of you missing.
His old friend yea i understand you are pissed!
depending on their age they may need just as much help . If they are young they knew not what they did.
Remember you have friends here that care and love you and my mothers heart goes straight out to my sisters heart .
I love you , I am sorry.
~Lisa~
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You are just getting better and better in writing of your poems. Besides the anguish you are feeling, there is also the anger. Personally I think that this is a good thing - keeping it bottled up is not good. I have also come to know you in your others writes, as well as some messages / notes to me, and I know that you have a relationship with God. He is a Father, and therefore knows the heart of His children. I thought about you all on Saturday and Sunday, and will keep doing this. Keep writing - not only for the content, but also for the fact that you are skilled at conveying feeling and choice of words to compliment each other. This poem is is a plea, and not written in anger to God - we may question his Wisdom, but we also need to await the answer. FransB
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This is a very true piece. I understand your pain. People are out here selling and doing drugs and they don't care whose family and life they destroy in the process. I wish you well in recovering fom this loss.
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omg im so sorry! I do see what drugs can do to a person and I will never do them.I hope my family members won't either. I feel your pain.
I hope you feel better soon...
red heart roses..
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I feel your sorrow and your rage
Yes I know in knowing it has torn you apart and you feel there is nothing you can do . Yes their is something you can do for if the ones you knew that gave him that stuff should be arrested and get them off the street may save other young kids lives . They sold him the stuff so there fore they are the dealers of the area . Have them picked up and the more we can get off the streets the better for you and your other son and your daughter . It will give you some peace to help you see the reason of his passing was not his own . And let everyone know that if they have a child who is comming out of the centers to watch them on who they meet up with for old friends are no longer welcome un supervised . If you child gets upset over this then it should tell you he is not well yet . I heard last night kelly that my nephew has relapsed again. He will be sent to a halfway house once again and I hope in this next week I can go see him and we can talk . I hope I can help him find what is eating at his soul so he can find peace once again . You be extra careful out there hun and God Bless you always and forever .
Dear God help my daughter find peace and the strength to heal her heart and soul from her loss of her son .Help her have the strength to carry on her life and love for her family for she is so blessed with love all about her . I pray that she directs her
anger towards the ones who harms a=our children in a way that will spread acrost the land and helps rejoin families in pain . She is the voice for all who are in pain today and the light to which they cn follow for all their safety . I love you Kelly and I do want you to be the one who shows them the way . Amen
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I have tried to comment like three times already on this this morning, and words escape me.
I have never had to deal with the drug scene in my home, (I thank God daily for that) I am sooo sorry for your loss.
I wish I knew what else to say.
and much love
Nyetta
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I am so sorry for your loss
your poems are very touching and heartfelt i must say.........
god be with you....
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I am so sad to hear of the lose of your son. I can feel your pain and the rage you feel for the ones that caused all of this. Know in your heart that on judgement day these people will have to answer for what they had done. thanks for sharing this with all of us. I will say a pray for you and your family
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Wow this poem is really sad, and it is awful your loss, I truly am sorry from the bottom of my heart, peer pressure is awful, and this poem was a great poem but very, very sad, now I fell like crying
, I pray to God he will help you through the loss of your son, you are in my prayers, and again so sorry for your loss, best wishes, michael <3
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This is so sad. I was married to a drug addict for several years and although he is still alive he cost me my children in the fact that his actions caused them to die after he was so high that he beat me. I can feel your pain oozing from this piece. Such a waste of a young life. My deepest condolonces to you dear poet.
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well penned
heart breaking and sad. I am so sorry my friend. Its ok to be angry but let God deal with them. He is more effective anyway. God bless you my friend and you get a from me. Hang in there and keep writing, Mark
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