Napkin Nonsense

I'm on the edge looking down
Wondering whether it's better to bleed or drown

This feeling is stuck in my throat
It brings me more pain that almost has no antidote

And for the life of me I don't think I'll ever understand
Why my body is weighed down with burning sand

For the life of me I don't think I'll ever understand
Why fate has dealt me this hand

I don't think I'll ever understand
This happy pain

I don't I'll ever understand...

My mind is stuck on park
But I can't say the same for my heart

This pain steals my soul
Leaves my thoughts as black as coal

And for the life of me I don't think I'll ever understand
Why my body is weighed down with burning sand

For the life of me I don't think I'll ever understand
Why fate has dealt me this hand

I don't think I'll ever understand
This happy pain

I don't I'll ever understand...

The wind blows through me
Because this husk is on empty

Lies are buried in our humanity
Truth lies in the darkest parts of our sanity

And for the life of me I don't want to understand
Why the beautiful beach is full of black sand

For the life of me I want to know
Why the sane aren't the freaks in this side-show

I don't even want to guess
Why these feelings are repressed

I don't want to understand your lies
When the truth is in your eyes

You are the side-show freak
You stand alone on this mountain peak

I'm beginning to understand
That it's not me looking down

I'm beginning to understand
That it's you that pays this toll