Hiding
Try to act normal
Just maintain
Lie myself through
Each minute
I am awake
Go to work
Coast through
Life on Auto-Pilot
Pop the pills
To keep my
Mind quiet
When you died
Not a tear shed
Bottled up
Now seeping through
Pain & grief
Family incomplete
Since losing you
Numb myself
Heavily self-medicate
Uppers in the morn
Downers at night
Just to sleep
Constant weed smoke
In between
Stop this vicious cycle
Consuming me
Will I ever be alright?
Author notes
love happens once in a lifetime. the difference lies in how many times you're willing to live in the time you're alive.
A contest entry
- oogaboogashoogalooga...this is serious by Starlette.
525 points, ended December 7, 2007, 150 entries
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I love this piece of writing. It's so true for many people. Cycle's are vicious and difficult to stop, but life can get better, once the cycle does stop. It was very emotional. I also enjoy the style of writing with short lines.
You are right, writing is an amazing outlet.
And I'm glad you use it
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Very emotional
It was a very emotional piece and strangely it seemed as if you were holding up a mirror to my own soul. Ride the storm everything will even out in the end I promise! -
great
this was such an emotional write...i thought it was awesome. specially the short lines which is one of my fave ways to write actually.
i especially like the ending "will i ever be alrite" sometimes when we're goin through something it feels like we'll never be alrite again...it feels like an eternity...i have felt that many times...
such a great write! good work
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Great write!
Very very true !! How many times are we willing to pick ourselves up and find a 'new' life....
I'm a realist, but also an optimist at heart and believe we can continuously do this... It takes a lot of sheer will, but let's try, rather than give in to the darkness!
I thought this was beautiful and emotional. Good luck in the contest!!
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Thank you!
I have always been and will always be a FIGHTER! I am in a constant battle with myself over what to do next! My head is strong but my heart and emotions hold me back at times...I have always made it through and I hope that will always be the case. I take a short trip to the darkness every once in a while but I never intend to make it my home! I really appreciate your kind words (as always).
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Powerful, Real.....
I know that bed VERY well, I also know that we can change the sheets because we don't just have to lie in it.
The drugs may very well feel like and allow us to think
that we're getting through it...we are if the passage of time is what we count. Occasionally, being numb works in that moment of trauma however, I know that it is a short acting fix for the aftermath of a situation that almost requires your total presence in order to work through pieces of it...YOU deserve that.
It is O.K. to think what you do, it is O.K. to feel what you do, it is not O.K. to endanger your physical, mental and spritual health because it can be temporarily and permanently damaging and YOU don't deserve that.
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Sad write indeed
As though a piece of your soul had been torn away yet unknowing within that pain and the loss he carries your soul to heaven with him so in time you will rejoin . But first dont go to him riddled with drugs make sure when you meet you will give him back that girl he left behind . Find yourself a place you both loved and release the pain within. You will feel his presents there and in doing so you will find the peace you so need . God bless and as he watches over you as your guardeon angel this day let him then see your smile and that you will be OK .THEN LET HIM FLY WITH YOU BENEATH HIS WINGS
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