My Life, My Struggle

I remember a time when I was happy
The world was my oyster- my playground
Now here I stand alone
Feeling as though my soul is bound

It all started when I was fifteen
Pain, abuse- a rape
My life felt destroyed
I was so full of hate

I soldiered through for many years
Trying to hide every tear- every unpleasant frown
No one knew my inner turmoil
Then came the day when I had my mental breakdown

All my fear, all my torment
All my memories came rushing back- I felt contempt
Here in my bed, I would play with a knife and pills
Then there came the day of my suicide attempt

Everyone cared, yet no one understood
Hospitals, doctors, antidepressents- I tried
They didn't help, I was to sorrowfull
Every single day I cried

I remember a time when I was happy
The world was oyster- my playground
Now here I stand alone
Feeling as though my soul is bound