I'd given you everything.
everything I thought I was.
I loved you.
Held you close.
And kissed away your tears.
I felt such pity.
For your young, bleeding heart.
I threw everything I had,
Into saving you.
But every time I thought i'd come close,
Every-time I thought i'd caught a glimpse,
Of those battered and bruised wings;
Nearly flutter to life again.
You shoved it in my face.
You called me worthless.
Told me you hated me.
Despised my existence.
And I let you.
I hung my head.
Fought back the tears.
Fought back the weakness.
that the fear of you brought upon me.
I let you scream.
Yell,
Curse me.
Because I was too young,
Too niave'.
To think you knew better.
I'd seen.
First hand.
What he'd done to you.
I'd seen.
The pure petrified fear.
Consume you.
Whenever he walked through the door.
And I knew,
I was your only release point.
So after every rage you threw.
I'd sit back,
And quietly wait you out.
My soul bled so prefusely for you.
And when you came back,
After each time,
I'd forgive you.
I'd love you.
though deep inside,
I knew I shouldn't.
I held onto you.
So terrified,
that if I let you go,
You'd let go of life.
So many times,
You told me
That I was all you had left.
That I was your heart and soul.
But I couldn't save you.
I couldn't love you enough ,
To show you how life could be.
You finally cracked me.
Broke me.
And when I finally saw,
The cruel pleasure of it.
Written on your face.
I knew,
I'd never had your heart.
Or your love.
But you had all of mine.
You had everything I once was.
Until you'd stripped me,
Down to nothing.
You had my heart,
Locked securely in your cage.
Battered, Broken and bruised.
You had my once innocent soul,
tainted now,
By your cruel words.
Your fists of anger.
You had my mind.
And everything in it.
You twisted it.
Tortured it.
To your likeing.
Forcing me,
To hide behind a wall,
Of quiet shame.
The only thing you never had.
was my body.
And that angered you most.
It was the only thing,
I held from you.
But in the end,
After all you'd taken.
My body was the least of my losses.
You charmed me.
Minipulated me.
Cursed me.
Until you knew.
There was nothing left.
Then you accused me.
You shattered me.
And then,
After telling me,
How foolish I was.
How niave' and stupid.
You locked me completely
Out of your life.
Left me,
Freezing.
Broken.
And Bruised.
Out in the cold.
With nothing left.
Nothing to grasp.
Nothing to save me.
But in the end.
So many years later.
I saved myself.
I never needed you.
I never needed to save you.
And I never needed who I was with you.
You were the stupid fool.
You were niave'.
I have me back.
Not completely yet.
But I no longer belong,
To you.
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