Mommy.

Mommy,
Why don't you think I'm pretty?
You've never told me,
since I could remember
that I'm pretty.

Mommy,
Why don't you look me in the eyes anymore?
I may have done some stupid things in the past,
but I'm not that person anymore.
I've changed.
I'm better.

Mommy,
I wish I could tell you all the things I think,
but I feel like I can't.
You judge too much,
Even with your kids.
Don't say it's not true,
because it is.

Mommy,
I'm sorry I didn't turn out the way you wished.
I try so hard to be the good girl
that you wanted me to be.
But, I keep letting you down.
I'm always doing something wrong,
at least in your eyes.

Mommy,
can you please tell me that I'm pretty?
Just this once.
It will last me for the rest of my life.
Someone else's mommy called me pretty.
They meant it too.
Can you say it and mean it?
I hope so,
because I really do love you mommy.
You just hurt me sometimes.

Mommy,
I'm not a little girl anymore.
It seems like you don't want me to
grow up.
Let me, please?
I swear I'll do better.
I'll do better than all of those times before.

Mommy,
Don't be upset by this.
I'm not trying to hurt you.
I'm just trying to tell you the truth.
You always tell me to tell the truth,
and I did.
That is the end.
I hope you take this well.
Don't be sad or upset.
Just know, that I am a grown woman now.
Just let me be free,
for once..